Constant mini flash memories?

[Hopefulphoenix]

Hi. I was wondering if anybody else has this.
Ok. If I concentrate deeply on an activity, or try to, I start getting this influx of tiny memory flashes from my life. The flashes are not necessarily traumatic, but some are.
There is so much of my life that I have no linear memory of. It feels like the thing that held all all of it repressed has somehow burst. This phenomena is uncomfortable and makes being in the present really hard as I keep getting dragged into other times and places.
My T said it could be because I have dissociated so much away from reality, now when I try to be present my brain finds it hard. But why the memories I wonder? Is it a good thing.. and more importantly will it slow down if I stabilize?

 

[Justmehere]

Sounds more like intrusive memories. There is a good chance it will slow down as the underlying PTSD calms down.

What Is A Flashback? A Flashback Is...

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[Kubash16]

I have memories (both good and bad) pop in all the time. I feel split in two, my logical brain stays in the present so no one notices anything and my emotional brain is decades ago with an absolute power surge of emotions. Which starts the thought spirals that lead to SH, but anyways. I get ya. Most of my memories are just flashes. I have a few that play out some more but that’s no so often. The flashes of memory come randomly too, in totally unrelated situations.

 

[Hopefulphoenix]

Argh. Well im glad im not alone. The nuts thing is it comes when im “trying” to relax, or concentrate. Like we are supposed to do to get better. ?. Im trying to stop the eternal Flight mode.
But oh no... its like flash flash flash. It makes stuff hard. I have developed a habit of shaking my head like a horse, just to bring myself back into present time!!

 

[Kubash16]

Yup! I totally get ya.

 

[grit]

To me this is how I become aware of my shame... Literally. Little shakes that showed up when I did things that in fact supposed to be good or neutral times.

 

[Freida]

Yep....happens to me all the time. Random pictures pop in and out of my mind all the time. I'm getting better at coping with therapy but they haven't stopped yet

 

[Montgomery]

YES! ALL. THE. TIME.
I can be doing anything and get a flashback. Everything is a trigger it's ridiculous. Most of the mini ones aren't too traumatic but after having like a million a day it gets so exhausting.

 

[Survivor3]

Yep I understand. Get that alot, constant mini flashbacks. I used to dissociate a lot and now my brain is constantly piecing back the memories. After my near death racial attack my college associates were actually humiliating me when I was dissociating. Thanks for that guys!, really appreciated that abuse when I was suffering severe trauma.

 

[Alli D87]

I get them all the time too (intrusive memories according to my psych). They're exhausting!... My psych just prescribed me a medication that has worked for some people for flashbacks and intrusive memories it's called Naltrexone. I just started it a few days ago so no change yet. It may not even work but it's worth a try.