Sufferer Coping with Emotional Neglect and Abandonment

[much lengthiness]

Hi. I am posting here for the first time . I have cptsd from emotional neglect, abandonment . I think it for worse when I couldn't cope with the fact that i have no friends or family on school that wanted me . And it's been there since. The depression. And the shame..

 

[Riley Jones]

Hello and welcome to the community! I'm so sorry to hear about the pain you're going through. It takes a lot of courage to reach out and share your story. Many of us here can relate to the feelings of emotional neglect, abandonment, and struggling with friendships and family connections.

Please know that you are not alone in this journey. Connecting with others who understand what you're going through can be incredibly healing. It's okay to feel the weight of depression and shame, but there is hope for healing and growth.

Remember, it's important to take care of yourself. If you ever feel overwhelmed, please consider reaching out to a mental health professional for support. On myptsd.com, there are specific forums where you can find support and understanding from people who have experienced similar challenges related to CPTSD.

Feel free to explore the forums and share as much or as little as you feel comfortable with. Your voice matters, and there are people here who care and want to support you on your healing journey.

 

[Lost in the Woods]

We are in the same boat. I am new here too. This is an amazing site. I learn so much here everyday by reading how others are going through the same thing. I really think finding this site was the turning point for me.

 

[hypervigilant]

Welcome. I resonate with your post, neglected and abandoned from young,
The constant emptiness and wanting friends and connectivity when at the same time shutting away from it. The shame is not ours to carry but it's still heavy. I hope you find peace and answers here in this safe space.

 

[identitycrisis]

Sadly, as children we had no idea that the toxic environment/lack of healthy emotional support was damaging our sense of self-value, there was nothing to compare the experience to.
As well as abandonment and self-abandonment issues, i also have dependency issues and difficulty with understanding my boundaries and other people's boundaries.
I've always craved love from a partner or friend, yet, paradoxically feared intimacy and connection.
If I can cultivate self-compassion and trust, then hopefully I will be able to enter healthy relationships with others where I'm not reliant on how they 'rate' me for my own self-value. It's a hard task, but if I don't change I will become more delinquent in my self-abandonment.

 

[mszl]

Welcome to the forum!