Sufferer CPTSD and social interactions

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[Alien0n3arth]

Hi all,

I'm new here, Apologies if this has been discussed before. I'm reading on my mobile, so difficult to see all entries.

I was diagnosed with C-PTSD in 2017 and I'm now 48. My trauma is from childhood neglect and both sexual and physical abuse.
I'm wondering if anyone else has issues with thinking everyone hates them? I find it very difficult to read people and always feel unwelcome and unworthy. I don't like social situations and always ready to leave. I make sure I look at ways to get out and always on edge. I find social events overwhelming and very stressful. I'm hyper vigilant and I disassociate.

I'm also unable to take any criticism at all. I take it very personally.

I have a desperate need to be liked and fit in. During my school years, I kept myself to myself. I didn't make friends easily and dealt with bullying daily. So I never really fitted in anywhere, I was never comfortable at home or school. I still feel like this now as a mum with daughters and a loving husband. I never feel like I belong - even with them.

I'm really not sure if this is common or if it's just me.

Thank you for reading, its my first time reaching out.

Hi, I partially relate to what you described but there are differences. In social situations I feel overwhelmed because of the speed of the chaotic interactions, I process somehow slower, especially auditory information. I’m also afraid of being approached by someone because I need to have the answer prepared in advance otherwise I panic trying to figure out quickly what to answer. But I myself have no problems approaching someone when I have a reason and of course preparer in my head what I wanna say. I don’t think much about what others may think about me. When I’m with someone and the person describes me some situation I see it like a movie in my head and I’m fully in it. I also have problems reading others like idk I just take everything literally and struggle with jokes or irony ambiguity etc.