Childhood Csa And Can't Say The Words Out Loud

[Anarchy]

it's the reason why I'm trying to deal with it in English (not my native language) because the connotations and feelings are not as strong.

That is a huge plus for people who have more than one language.

I know about four or five other multi lingual people (with traumas) who cannot go near certain words in their first language, but who can manage them more easily in another language. One of those people was a researcher into the cognitive psychology of language.

I think that even within a language certain accents and dialects can be very different in how triggering they are.

 

[agirls]

I had all these plans to go in this week and say it but I didn't. I was all unsettled from being in overdrive all week. I see her Thursday and then she's away for a week. I feel like I need to say it before she goes away. But I doubt I will.

 

[Rumors]

@agirls
First, let me say there is power in being able to say things out loud however you can take the option of writing it down and handing it to her with a side note that you feel like you need to say it out loud as well but not today. I would also say that after "saying" things, there is a fallout that comes after. I would choose the week she is going on vacation to do that. The fallout might come in many forms, shame being one of them, and it can be a little overwhelming. It makes me hole up and not want to be around anyone. I can become very introverted and it also makes me not want to go to therapy! I want to urge you to please tell and please talk about it but do it when you can perhaps book another appointment soon after. Or, call her up Monday morning and ask her if you can come in Monday and Thursday. Just make sure you have enough support for the fallout.
Keep talking...tell your story. Don't give up.

 

[agirls]

I didn't bring it up this past session. There was other stuff that came up and it kind of fell by the wayside. Thanks for all the support here. I feel better knowing I'm not the only one who has trouble with this.

 

[SB213]

I shocked myself last session when I said my abuservwas a pedofile and a child abuser. I didn't plan it. It just came out. Then I confronted my conflicted feelings because that's not the totality of who he was. My therapist said that he had something like a disease or addiction, that an alcoholic is more than just an alcoholic. The whole thing is so horrible. Everyone in my family only sees good and forgets bad. I'm the only one who is waking up and having memories. My therapist is the only one to talk to.

Take your time. You are healing on many levels. As am I. When the time is right you will be able to talk. You will see that you are much more than that one thing, and that even saying it does not define you.

I'm with you. Sending you courage and wholeness.