Deemed "untreatable."

[Animalliberator]

Fact is, you want what you want and when you want it almost to a pathological point. You would argue with Jesus if he stood in front of you and told you he existed because that is how you are geared. You are unfixable, you win because ultimately that is what you want. This is a game to you. How long can you go before people become disgusted and give up?? It is pathological. You are far more ill than you think. Run to the closest hospital. Please. If they are unable to "fix" you at least they can keep you from hurting others. I imagine your family life is full of turmoil. There is absolutely NOTHING this forum can help you with. You have met every suggestion with "utter quackery" and "woo-woo, hippy-dippy" answers...doesn't feel too good, eh. Peace out!

I have been respectful and certainly have not hurl pejoratives like you have. I know I have problems. That is why I, along with everyone else on this site, has sought help. I have been hospitalized more times than I care to remember so I really don't appreciate you making light of such a serious, at what was literally, deadly, situation for me. Contrary to your assumption, my family life is actually not full of turmoil. I have a lovely wife who understands my struggles, who exercises patience, and who helps me along my journey. She has witnessed, firsthand (unlike you), how hard I have worked. And she has even met with some of my therapists who have told her that my case is indeed very complex, difficult to treat, and unlike most of their other clients.

I would appreciate it, Rumors, if you ceased to comment on this thread. I find your posts to be rude and lacking in compassion. Thank you.

 

[Animalliberator]

I am genuinely sorry for you that you are unable to take on board anything that has been said to you here. I hope that at some point some of it might filter through to you and you will choose to find a way to heal.

Just because I don't buy into mysticism, spirituality, and the concepts of mindfulness and being grounded doesn't mean that I won't respond to some other kind of treatment. But, as I have stated many times before, I have to have CONFIDENCE in a therapist and their practice to feel safe. If it feels alien to me then I don't feel safe. I don't have confidence in them. Any therapist who spouts off about "mindfulness" and "energy" immediately looses me. I tune them out. I was so angry while reading Dr. Levine's book - utter hogwash - that I had to put it down several times. I finally finished Levine's tome and felt just like I do when I watch bad reality TV - like I had lost some brain cells because it was so utterly vacuous and stupid.

 

[digger]

I'm loathe to comment any more because I feel that commenting here now is futile and that you are just fuelling your perception that you are untreatable by dismissing everything and everyone and getting people to give up on you, but I have one last suggestion. You said earlier that you currently have a talk therapist that you trust. I would suggest printing off this thread and the other one you started and sharing it with her so you can get an objective view of it from someone who knows you.

 

[Nicolette]

I'm closing this thread until Anthony can have a look at it and he may choose to re-open it or not. I don't have time to go through it but it seems like it's building into a volcano and I'm putting a stop to it erupting as there is a fine line between opinion and actually turning that opinion upon someone and making it a personal attack.