wallygator
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Probably the most difficult issue to deal with is when you realize that most if not all you believed was false or based on faulty truths.
Realizing that all you knew was based on fear and loathing. When it started happening to me a couple of years ago I was very frightened because all I knew to be true was suddenly not real in some way. These days as I spend more and more time medicated and choosing not to do drugs or alcohol or dwell in hate, I have flashes of how my behavior has been based on stuff that is not true. People do not hate me, people are not my enemies and the hard fact that I burned alot of bridges and lost many potential allies and friends due to these thoughts and feelings.
When it first happened I was so afraid and anxious, I felt that I had lost myself and that I could not accept my feelings of emptyness that washed over me. The feelings of loss were overwhelming and frightful that I somehow no longer had a solid ground to place my feet over; that all I knew was an illusion. I still feel feelings of overwhelming discomfort and scared at times, but the medication really helps me to stay grounded and remember that life itself is an illusion in some way.
Realizing that all you knew was based on fear and loathing. When it started happening to me a couple of years ago I was very frightened because all I knew to be true was suddenly not real in some way. These days as I spend more and more time medicated and choosing not to do drugs or alcohol or dwell in hate, I have flashes of how my behavior has been based on stuff that is not true. People do not hate me, people are not my enemies and the hard fact that I burned alot of bridges and lost many potential allies and friends due to these thoughts and feelings.
When it first happened I was so afraid and anxious, I felt that I had lost myself and that I could not accept my feelings of emptyness that washed over me. The feelings of loss were overwhelming and frightful that I somehow no longer had a solid ground to place my feet over; that all I knew was an illusion. I still feel feelings of overwhelming discomfort and scared at times, but the medication really helps me to stay grounded and remember that life itself is an illusion in some way.
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