Depressed About My Life Right Now

[Deleted member 38644]

Im 23 and my life just getting started. I felt trapped in a basement in mind and physically. I feel behind. My truck is a trigger place and I'm getting a new car. Idk where to start or what to do because I never had anything stable. I went through this complete repetitive trauma cycle that seemed to not end. Im finally going to get the help. I lost so much of my education I feel so dumb. I feel so sad at times because it feels like I gotta start all the way over. I never had a bank account without using it to run from abusers. I never had anything.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

@Lauren Taylor , I just read your post and had to respond because it pulled at my heart. I am super glad that you are getting help and super sorry that you have had to go through so much. Keep the fact that you will get help and that you are getting to start again as good things and know that step by step things can get better.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Thank you and yesss it hurts

@Lauren Taylor , I just read your post and had to respond because it pu...

 

[Powder]

That's a low feeling. How long has it been with this emotional state?
Other than your truck, any other things contributing to it that you can identify?

I hope you can make a couple of small changes and see some improvement in mood.

I think it's like weight loss, slow/real improvements that can be maintained easily is best. Nothing to radical and unsustainable. Little by little, good things are possible. You have plenty of time to go back to school or make a new path. This forum is a good support as you do that.