Depression & Being Suicidal

[Ricanoland]

I know that with BPD you can get very strong emotional urges. I know that my PTSD can send me down hill. I am just curious if other people have had a few days or a week where one hour you want to kill yourself, and then feel like life right now is better than its ever been, its been very drainning to say the least. I am just wondering if anyone else understands what I am talking about?

 

[mamachick]

I have not experienced that but feel for you. That sounds extremely draining. I have felt something similiar but in a milder form in my younger days before being diagnosed with ptsd (dont think I had ptsd then) but did suffer atypical depression. The depression was situational. It could change by the hour or by the day.

With atypical depression, the mood can be lifted by company, by a good event or outing, by reducing stress even momentarily. I remember that feeling and it felt very erratic. I just never had any suicidal thoughts with it. The good part of that as I recall is that it was easy to remember (and you are insightful) that it was a temporary state.

Sorry I am not of more help. Please remember that these feelings will pass and you will feel like life is great again.

 

[InHell11]

I remember feeling generally depressed and anxious through much of my childhood. I kinda figured it was something I could grow out of and the counseling I was in only seemed to confirm that. So I pushed myself too hard to grow out of it and then wasn't prepared when that horrible crap went down at my school...I knew a part of me inside died when I finally found out what all happened and who died but I tried so hard to push it deep inside and get along with my life.

Anyways thanks for your input....and well I only felt life was great one time, and that's when I was spending most of my time on drugs running away or escaping or whatever, I remember I would have anxiety attacks in my dorm room if I couldn't get ahold of anyone to go get f****d up with hopefully I can maybe find ways of just generally feeling overall better though.