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ThomasUSArmy
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I had one really good day this week. Yes it was to good to be true, my PTSD or whatever I have going on has taken over my night, my dreams, I now wake in total panic and fear...... If and when I can get some sleep. Anybody in San Diego. I really need someone to talk to.
Don't give up, think of your family and friends, talk away on here nobody will judge you let it out but never give up there must be a way for us all it's just finding the right way
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ThomasUSArmy
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I need help TODAY. right this minute. I am so desperate to make it all stop.
I really can't handle this I am very NOBODY UNDERSTANDS I feel like screaming. No I feel a screaming in my head. I feel I should. This is a waste of time I cant even come up with a clear thought I am sorry
I really can't handle this I am very NOBODY UNDERSTANDS I feel like screaming. No I feel a screaming in my head. I feel I should. This is a waste of time I cant even come up with a clear thought I am sorry
BloomInWinter
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((((((Thomas))))))))))
If you are at that point, it is OK to call your local emergency hotline and tell them you are at that point. They can't help you if you don't tell them...and I hope you do. They can help fast-track you through to some assistance.
If you feel like you can hang on, keep reading, talking, exercising...whatever works for you.
But...please don't give up. You've made it this far. You have more courage and strength than you are giving yourself.
If you give up, the people who love you will be traumatized and they will feel just as you do now.
Do you have a safe person to talk to? Who will just let you talk and talk and talk until you gain some breathing space? A buddy who will listen? We're here for you. We've been through this. You are NOT alone in this. Keep posting...as many as you need to. We will be reading.
Please hold on...that kind, courageous person inside you who wanted that loved one to have a properly folded flag deserves healing and compassion.
In admiration for your strength & wishes for healing,
BloomInWinter
If you are at that point, it is OK to call your local emergency hotline and tell them you are at that point. They can't help you if you don't tell them...and I hope you do. They can help fast-track you through to some assistance.
If you feel like you can hang on, keep reading, talking, exercising...whatever works for you.
But...please don't give up. You've made it this far. You have more courage and strength than you are giving yourself.
If you give up, the people who love you will be traumatized and they will feel just as you do now.
Do you have a safe person to talk to? Who will just let you talk and talk and talk until you gain some breathing space? A buddy who will listen? We're here for you. We've been through this. You are NOT alone in this. Keep posting...as many as you need to. We will be reading.
Please hold on...that kind, courageous person inside you who wanted that loved one to have a properly folded flag deserves healing and compassion.
In admiration for your strength & wishes for healing,
BloomInWinter
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ThomasUSArmy
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Well I made it through the day. Now the night. I am scared
deer_in_headlights
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(((((((((((((Thomas))))))))))))
We're here, you're safe... right in this moment, even though it's dark outside, you're safe...
My veteran Trauma Therapist said that he felt safest at night, that the enemy couldn't see him on the battlefield, also he knew that his fellow soldiers "had his back" when it was time to rest. (He also did exposure therapy with me to reduce my fear of the night. It really helps a lot!)
I'm going back to sleep, but will envision you in safety, that no harm will come to you tonight.... You're home...
Keeping you in my prayers...
We're here, you're safe... right in this moment, even though it's dark outside, you're safe...
My veteran Trauma Therapist said that he felt safest at night, that the enemy couldn't see him on the battlefield, also he knew that his fellow soldiers "had his back" when it was time to rest. (He also did exposure therapy with me to reduce my fear of the night. It really helps a lot!)
I'm going back to sleep, but will envision you in safety, that no harm will come to you tonight.... You're home...
Keeping you in my prayers...
hey there Thomas...
I can completely relate to your feelings of panic and anger. Being a veteran myself, I know that in the United States, the VA can leave you with the feelings of hopelessness. You would think that a hospital would help to make you feel better. Sometimes, the process to get there is very long and tiring. The main thing I try to do is not panic over what I'm feeling. I know the VA will medicate you beyond what you feel is reasonable. In the beginning, it is overwhelming what they make you swallow. This is to balance you from the severe mood swings and confusion. I know, it doesn't make sense why they want you like a zombie, but in the beginning, the meds will knock you for a loop. Your body will eventually stabilize and balance out. Most people I know that have experienced this treatment get angry because they feel out of control. I know that's exactly how I feel. I hate being out of control, even when I know I am NOT in control of anything but my attitude.
One other thing I learned when I got out...I was taught "Fight or Flight" survival skills while enlisted. Those did not go away and probably won't any time soon. I've been out since 1981. Once I learn what is wrong, I can take steps to heal. You are on your way just by posting here on the forum. I learned how to stuff my feelings and deal with life. When I had no more room to stuff, I felt things that I didn't understand....emotions. It's a process and can make you more whole than anything you have tried. Just keep breathing and posting and you'll get to the other side like a lot of us here. I promise. Holler back if you need to, I'm here.
suzie q
I can completely relate to your feelings of panic and anger. Being a veteran myself, I know that in the United States, the VA can leave you with the feelings of hopelessness. You would think that a hospital would help to make you feel better. Sometimes, the process to get there is very long and tiring. The main thing I try to do is not panic over what I'm feeling. I know the VA will medicate you beyond what you feel is reasonable. In the beginning, it is overwhelming what they make you swallow. This is to balance you from the severe mood swings and confusion. I know, it doesn't make sense why they want you like a zombie, but in the beginning, the meds will knock you for a loop. Your body will eventually stabilize and balance out. Most people I know that have experienced this treatment get angry because they feel out of control. I know that's exactly how I feel. I hate being out of control, even when I know I am NOT in control of anything but my attitude.
One other thing I learned when I got out...I was taught "Fight or Flight" survival skills while enlisted. Those did not go away and probably won't any time soon. I've been out since 1981. Once I learn what is wrong, I can take steps to heal. You are on your way just by posting here on the forum. I learned how to stuff my feelings and deal with life. When I had no more room to stuff, I felt things that I didn't understand....emotions. It's a process and can make you more whole than anything you have tried. Just keep breathing and posting and you'll get to the other side like a lot of us here. I promise. Holler back if you need to, I'm here.
suzie q
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ThomasUSArmy
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Went to the VA yesterday. 2 hours of talking to a trainee. When will I be important enough to see someone Allready trained. Y can't I see a real doctor. They don't take you serious tillyour dead. How u get real help without a gun to your head. I feel my deth could change the treatment of others. I feel cornered and yet very much alone
deer_in_headlights
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Hi Thomas,
Sending you love! Thomas, you know your death would not serve a single soul, only your living and healing will do that.
Can you call a civilian trauma therapist? There are many who will treat Vets outside the VA system, at little to no cost.
Please keep reaching out. You ARE important enough to see someone who knows what they're doing.
You are not alone, Thomas. It might feel that way, but you're not. We're here, there are many servicemen who are going through what you are experiencing, and have made it safely past the blocks where you are now. You are not alone.
There are good trauma therapists who can help you, but they don't know you're suffering until you call them and tell them and ask for help. Keep trying, many of us here had to work with several therapists before we found the right match for us.
You need to keep reaching out - not with a gun to your head, but with a phone and keyboard.
You are loved, wanted, needed...
With deep concern,
Deer
Sending you love! Thomas, you know your death would not serve a single soul, only your living and healing will do that.
Can you call a civilian trauma therapist? There are many who will treat Vets outside the VA system, at little to no cost.
Please keep reaching out. You ARE important enough to see someone who knows what they're doing.
You are not alone, Thomas. It might feel that way, but you're not. We're here, there are many servicemen who are going through what you are experiencing, and have made it safely past the blocks where you are now. You are not alone.
There are good trauma therapists who can help you, but they don't know you're suffering until you call them and tell them and ask for help. Keep trying, many of us here had to work with several therapists before we found the right match for us.
You need to keep reaching out - not with a gun to your head, but with a phone and keyboard.
You are loved, wanted, needed...
With deep concern,
Deer
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