Did Something Good Today

[JoAnnex7]

I've been having very vivid nightmares that I can't make myself wakeup from. Usually I'm an insane insomniac, going three to four days without an ounce of sleep. But I find myself avoiding sleep when I used to beg for it because of these nightmares. So I slept all day today basically because I avoided sleeping and eventually fell asleep around 5am. But this nightmare started and when I woke up it was 3pm. After realizing how long I was stuck in this nightmare and how I missed breakfast date with my boyfriend and my therapy session I decided I wanted to stay in bed and mope about not accomplishing anything. After a small fight with my parents I finally got out of bed and they took me to an Emotions Anonymous meeting. It was one of my goals to start going to these meetings and since I was feeling so unaccomplished today I thought I couldn't do anything right and so I wasn't going to go to the meeting. But I did. and I think If I stick with it, commit to going every week on top of therapy and group therapy, it will really help me. So even though the rest of my day was a bust, at least I did one thing that was proactive and helpful to myself. I feel so much better having done at least one thing productive instead of accepting defeat and not getting out of bed all day. Also as of 12pm I will be officially 2 months cut free. I'm really proud of myself.