I did eat another zero points meal last night, as I was so overwhelmed. It is what it is. I was feeling so weird with it all. Sitting and breathing could have been a different way. Playing a musical instrument could of been useful. I did in the end look up some comedy and watched that, so that was good. I had nothing in the house like chocolate or biscuits or I would have eaten them, but given I did not have them in the house I was able to resist those urges, though it was really hard, fiendishly difficult not to drive down to the local store. I was also home alone and in lots of pain and stress from my wasp sting. Though I did find the prednisone, and that brought down the stinging, swelling and pain overnight.
That is something to think about
@NinjaWolf, thanks for the insight.
The whole being here in this now thing is really hard. I did it a bit more yesterday though. I was not ready for all those feelings.
I read a bit of Brene Brown yesterday.
The first thing I need to do when I have that impulse for disordered eating I need to write down a list of what I can do instead, or have a list to refer to.
Last night was a success in that I didn't eat a loaf or half a loaf of bread. So small progresses.
The whole serving size thing is a habit. I have a habit of eating more than I need. I also have a habit of denying myself, which brings on a lot of anxiety, and corrosive self doubt, so that is really tricky for me. The whole serving size is still a shock, to see how much I was habitually eating. So yeah it is a weight loss program, but it is also a great way to track what you are eating, exercise, and helps you make sure that you get all the different food groups, so it is about the middle way in my mind, so you don't go too far one way or the other.
