Do i have ptsd?

[Super CoolTM]

I should probably get a professional for this but I just want some opinions. Not that I don't trust doctors, I feel better if people who are experiencing this can relate/give me some answers.

I also do not know if this is related, but it is something I touch more on in my first post (if you can see that, I'm new to this). I get a strange "arousal" or sensation in my privates when my father comes near me, raises his fist, or touches me. It's not a sexual feeling. It's like a response, since I cannot be aroused or feel sexual attraction. Is that related to PTSD?

So for a while I wanted to know if I had PTSD because of my bad emetephobia. I got confused on phobias and PTSD, but then with the new discovery I was (most likely) molested as a child, I think something is wrong with me. Whenever an adult or person touches me, even if it's my friend or mom, I depersonalize/detach from reality and my schizo kicks in in high gear, or I just float off for the rest of the day. I get very depressed, sometimes anxious, exposed, and suspicious. Sometimes, if I'm having a bad day, I will hallucinate and see people/images of people coming to hurt me for that day.

I just don't know if I got PTSD because I don't have panic attacks when I'm touched or have nightmares, since I have no recollection of my being "molested". (Again, it's too late to physically tell if I was raped as a child. I'm getting checked out soon and will talk to a doctor. For now, it's just a strong hunch.

In all honesty, I don't know how PTSD works because I can't relate or find anything online describing this illness. I've taken tests, but I no longer trust them. I just don't know.

I'm 17 and very confused and troubled.

 

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No one here can tell you that. You haven't described anything that sounds like PTSD and being molested still only comes with a small chance of developing PTSD. I am not saying it isn't possible, it just doesn't sound like it from the information you have provided. You can have emotional trauma issues without having PTSD.

You are struggling though and my heart goes out to you. Have you explored medical options like low vitamin levels? B vitamin deficiencies can cause hallucinations.

 

[Super CoolTM]

No one here can tell you that. You haven't described anything that sounds like PTSD and being molested...

Okay that makes sense. I honestly don't think I have it, I originally thought you got PTSD if something traumatic happened, but honestly I don't feel like I have it. And the hallucinations are because of my schizophrenia, but I guess I can try taking more vitamins.