Do I Trust This Feeling Or Not?

[TimeToHeal]

Oh @mytai what a nightmare, I'm so sorry. I'm glad you are in a safe place and are being supported this time. Good for you for finding the strength to go to the authorities.

I'm also glad you were able to share with your T what happened the other night.

I wish there was more I could do, but I'm sending you strength and :hug:.

 

[mytai]

I look like a disgusting mess :(

Still waiting for the police. They haven't come yet, and the nurse called a second time to see where they were. The longer I wait for them the more I talk myself out of it. I want to run right now. I want to leave the hospital when no one is looking.

My T is emailing with me a bit. I'm not ok. I can't block the pain anymore though, my whole head hurts.

 

[Echo]

@mytai - I wish we could all come and look after you. I hope they can give you something to help the pain and let you sleep. But I suppose that can't happen fully until the police have been. Please let everyone there keep you safe.

What is your T suggesting? Do you feel that the domestic assault team have got any good solutions for you.

I'm not surprised you are not feeling ok; you never get any peace or a feeling of relaxation and safety. But I do pray that this is the turning point for you now. And I really hope the police do something fast. Please keep talking to whoever helps you.

 

[mytai]

Well I just got home. My head is killing me, couldn't block the physical pain out anymore. I finished reporting to the police, I feel like if they don't do anything this time I just signed a death wish.

The police officer walked me to my car after, then followed my car home and walked me into my apartment. He was nice, but I know it isn't up to him whether my uncle is charged or not.

 

[mytai]

Here's the new damage. The doctor did 4 stitches to hopefully minimize the scar.

 

[TimeToHeal]

So glad you are home safely, @mytai. Thank goodness you got a decent and kind officer.

Did they say what would happen next?

I'm so sorry this happened and you are in so much pain. Please be kind and take care of yourself this weekend. Do whatever you have to do to stay safe.

Supportive :hug: to you.

 

[Ryn]

@mytai, how awful. This is a horrifying ordeal. I am furious and heartbroken for you and that he could dare hurt your beautiful face like this. I'm so sorry this has happened.

I am really, really proud of you for reporting. After the hugely stressful and disappointing run you've already had with the police, I know that trying again has got to be really hard, but you did the right thing. Fingers crossed that the police take things seriously this time. It is long past time this despicable man was put away for good.

Please take extra safety measures this weekend, and be kind and gentle with yourself. Cuddle with Chelsea, keep yourself safe and tucked away where he can't get to you. (((((mytai)))))

 

[mytai]

@TimeToHeal, he didn't say what would happen next. I should of asked but I was only thinking about going home to sleep. I work this weekend, so now time to sit and take care of myself. The best I can do right now is lie in bed with an ice pack on my head to try and minimize the pain.

@Ryn, I really hope they take things seriously this time too... otherwise I'm in a whole lot of danger.

 

[mytai]

I'm struggling right now. My head hurts so much, the screaming is so loud in my head, and I can't separate the attack from now. It's seeping into the now, different than a flashback. :cry:

 

[Ryn]

Oh you precious thing, I am so sorry you are hurting so much. :cry: Maybe turn on some gentle music or something? I'm assuming you have done all you can to soothe the pain from the wounds (ibuprofen, etc)? I wish I knew what would help.

My heart aches for you so much. But I know you can get through this, you are so strong and brave. I am listening if you need to talk. Gentle hugs. <3

 

[Echo]

I wish there was someone who could be with you. It is such an ordeal to have to cope on your own. Calming hugs to you. I hope your pain subsides very soon; your head must be so shaken up.

 

[mytai]

@Ryn, I was given tylenol at the hospital, and I slept with ice on my head. I really do need to talk, I'm having a hard time staying "sane".

The police called me at work today, so I go into the station in an hour for more pictures of my face. The officer on the phone sounded angry that nothing was done in February. He said they take stuff like this seriously and it is beyond the safety planning stage. My T has been keeping somewhat in touch with me through email right now. I really need support right now.

I don't feel safe. I told the police officer on the phone again that I'm scared if they don't do anything that I just signed a death wish because clearly I pissed my uncle right off. Him going for my face is new, he's never done it before, ever.