Almost everything on the original post relates to me. Someone here said that highly sensitive people are more likely prone to develop ptsd, some form of it. I was always more of a loner, never really liked crowds, and took things way too personally. Now when I come to think of it, I've never liked how I reacted to people's comments.
I posted something about this on another forum and I was just fighting with myself on how I reacted to certain comments that were said. I have always thought my reactions were wrong, like i was too weak or I am not supposed to react a certain way. Now, with my diagnosis of c-ptsd, it makes comments and reactions twice as strong for me and I look crazy arguing with myself. My stomach all in knots, my back hurting- damn.
As a child, i never liked how I looked. I was always called nicknames. I was heavier than my sister and I always thought she was prettier than me because she had more to fit in than me. Time passed and somehow, the nickname for me hasn't left my memory. I was sexually harrassed when young so that shot my world of perception. Moreover, life over these couple of years have left me shot and worn out. I just don't know what is normal for me. Never felt like it, never was and I am not now. I am ashamed because it's nothing like before for me...