Poll Do You Feel PTSD-Related Guilt?

[Srain]

((((((((((Alby)))))))))) :(

I voted "all the time" but after reading what people have written the truth is I feel guilt for what those I love have to go through when my symptoms rule my life and they are effected.

I DO NOT feel guilty for what those did to me, not at all. I waver about how maybe when I was abducted and raped that maybe I should have bashed his head in anyway because I could but I wasn't an adult, though I felt like one, he was a big MAN and my gut told me it was useless - take your punishment and find a way out after. Hmmmmmm...punishment....I imagine in that scenario I feel guilt for having not made a run for it earlier despite the gun, damn.

 

[ClairBear226]

Massive crushing guilt. It isn't the traumas I've dealt with that are the hardest things for me to get past. It's the guilt.

 

[VDWngr1355]

what does guilt feel like?

 

[pi314159]

what does guilt feel like?

I'm not sure everyone feels the same way but I'll explain the way I feel....

Guilt is feeling like something (in my case everything) is your fault. You feel as though you have done the wrong thing and you wish you could take it back. I feel guilty even when things that happen aren't in my control.

Guilt is a terrible feeling that hurts, that you want to go away, that makes you feel evil and makes you feel dirty. I wish I could wash the guilt away.

I feel guilty about every day things, like if my boyfriend running late or him feeling sick - I just feel as though somehow I did something wrong to cause it or the bad things that are happenening should be happening to me.

A lot of the time guilt is unjustified: When I confronted the 2 neighbours who sexually abused me when I was a child, I kept saying sorry. I felt like it was wrong for me to upset them with my problem. On one level I know that was ridiculous but I felt like I was being selfish for not being over things that happened 15 and 20 years ago when they obviously didn't care/think about what they did to me any more. Telling them they had hurt me was hurting them and I felt wrong for doing it.

I'm not sure if I really explained guilt but I gave it a shot!!!

 

[VDWngr1355]

Thanks for the explanation. Yeah, then I have those thoughts on a daily basis as well. At times I think I deserve that wha happened to me.

 

[Marie E.]

New guilt of having PTSD is just springing up!! I feel lost and out of control as I do not have my lovely children with me anymore. I'm going to have to use my coping skills again and use some new ones. And most of all I just have to *Breathe* !

 

[Deleted member 1860]

No guilt about the trauma itself.

Guilty about everything thereafter.

It sux!!

 

[Jen93]

I answered "All the time." It's terrible. I feel like I have to make amends for something- the problem is; I don't know what. Every time a teacher gives a student a dirty look at university; I take on their guilt and I end up feeling awful. Part of my trauma was the fact that I couldn't fix anything they were bullying me for- hearing impairment, missing my friends at home, laughing, (the teacher snuck up on me, and being hard of hearing, I didn't know that she'd entered the room.)

I still feel like I have to do something. Like I should apologize to everyone for everything I do. It's a really bad feeling- as bad as depression in my opinion. Nobody should have to go through it if it isn't justified.

 

[Anna]

All the time. It is pretty bad. I feel like I am going crazy.

 

[Beverly G.]

How can a mother not feel guilt when her chld was raped down stairs while she slept upstairs? I don't feel guilt about the other traumas. I do feel guilty for neglecting my family when I am in a bad way.

 

[Red Feather]

YES. GUILTY.

 

[Ice_Fire]

Yes :(