I completed a baby step today! This morning I got all my hair stuff put into separate containers by type of hair thingy. Since then, I've been battling the fear that something will happen to "undo" my little accomplishment, like my husband will get mad at me or something equally unlikely. (Just remembered that my mom would sometimes undercut something good I did. Hmm.) In reality, what my husband does do is compliment me, telling me what I've done looks great, so I have to keep that in mind - I'm living with him, he's my family now, but - he's not my mother!
Anyway, then I moved onto starting a couple other little projects, in tiny baby steps, and I'm trying to push myself through the anxiety about it. This is something my therapist and I talked about yesterday. She said this is going to be uncomfortable, but to overcome it I have to push through it - but slowly, not to the point of making myself sick. Her advice: I need to keep talking to myself and try to stay in the present moment, assuring myself of where I am, who I'm with, that I'm okay and safe.
She's right about one thing: it ain't easy. But I'm doing it. I just have to remember not to overdo it, because that makes me crash really hard.