Poll Do You See An End To The Symptoms In Your Life?

[mamachick]

I wish anybody out here understood

 

[The Albatross]

. I think that having a support system must be the biggest factor.

(((so sorry brat))) I had to go outside of my family for a support system... after a couple of years of setting and defending boundaries, only now will I share some with my mother... more with my spouse as I'm regaining a little bit of trust.

 

[The Albatross]

(moved quote)

 

[Mercy]

Hi Brat, Ouch. I think the behavior of your daughter is hurtful to say the least. Maybe, it is good for her to express her feelings. Let her use the counseling center at her grad school. You do not need to be the one who has to hear hate from a relationship you might have hoped would be supportive. Ouch on many levels.

Some day. your numbness will soften and you will be able grieve the loss of having the dream of child who will grow up and love you.

I have daughter trouble too. They cannot stand any PTSD talk. One can be very deliberately mean. The other is saddened by it and has asked me not to talk about it with her. I respect that.

 

[anni]

I don't think so? My T finally kind of directed me to that being ok, too. The bad stuff, the intrusive things which make life intolerable and painful, certainly will work on those and try to resolve them. There is neurological damage- that's not an excuse but it is a reason for much. Symtoms can be managed, some gotten rid of- some tolerated or perhaps incorperated into life, I don't know. What if the fight to be completely 'normal' precludes having much of a life at all? Comparing ourselves to others, or coming up against a brick wall of things which cannot be changed is frustrating plus leads to more self-kicking with some stuff. I have silly, silly residuals, like that stupid riding crop I tend to carry everywhere. For now, oh well. It works to manage something. Someday I might have the energy to address this, perhaps not. It's not hurting anyone else, might not actually being hurting me, if it allows me to function daily. The point is, I can't predict anything because the damage is there and I'm tired of expecting myself to have 'normal' reactions. I'm honestly, honestly working on 'stuff' across the board- it's all one can do in the end. This is a poll and everyone is different- this is merely my different and not a disagreement by any means.

 

[mamachick]

Thanks Mercy and I know you are right. Even when our kids are grown, it is a lot to expect for them to be able to accept our ptsd and the symptoms.Yesterday I was flooded with feelings and I know that is probably good thing because I have been numbing my feelings for so long, or avoiding, always rational and logical. The feelings surface and I attempt to rid of them. My ex is totally oblivious to the harm he has caused our children by his passive aggressiveness.

By the way, when I said "out here" in previous post, I meant aside from this site, out here in my world.Maybe this illness is a blessing, it has forced me to need something from others compared to previous when all I did was give.

 

[mamachick]

Thanks Mercy-you are very right about not talking with daughters. I try to remember how they must feel and Im sure that it is scarey for them to have a parent with this. It is very hurtful though and I am beginning to see how the belief of foreshortened future has kept from making decisions that could enhance my life. My very passive aggressive ex husband has caused a lot of harm to my daughters as well which has nothing to do with ptsd but my it does effect my response (hopelessness) about our relationship at times.

 

[mamachick]

oops -sorrry for duplicate post. I must be out of it today

 

[Gamereign555]

I don't see it. But I have noticed that it gets better, at least for now.

 

[shell]

Recently I was told by the first T I saw that I need to accept that I will always feel stressed about my past, and I got angry and left him. To be told I will always feel this way makes angry, for 20 plus years I ignored it and lived a relatatively normal life, and to have it suddenly consume my life really sucks. But now his planted that thought it drags me down, and with no hope of returning to normal for me, I often have suicidal thoughts. It's nice to see some people are more positive. After reading about someone having been in T for 20 years I felt it was hopeless.

 

[anthony]

There are limited therapists in the world who actually know what their doing with PTSD... it is incurable, but that has nothing to do with having anxiety or fear about your past for the rest of your life... which just isn't true.

 

[shell]

There are limited therapists in the world who actually know what their doing with PTSD... it is incurable, but that has nothing to do with having anxiety or fear about your past for the rest of your life... which just isn't true.

Thank you for your reply, unfortunately it now means I'm wary of really saying what I'm going through and what's in my head with the new T because the only time I did reveal a small incident that happened, he got angry about it, said it was really violent and changed the subject. The following week he spent the whole session on I must accept feeling stressed about my past, I felt like I was a lost cause.