I believe in healing too... to an extent. I have worked extremely hard on myself. Some of the things I have accomplished have been incredible. I never thought in my wildest dreams I'd be able to do some things that I am now doing. But... the fact remains, everytime I think I'm doing great and let down my guard so to speak, I fall flat on my face. There are certain things I absolutely must avoid and I don't see that ever changing, neither do my doctors. In fact, they suggest I permanently avoid certain situations. It's like the PTSD is just waiting in the shadows to pounce on me when I'm not vigilant. It has an altered my brain. I don't know about anyone here, but my PTSD shows up in my brain, my right hippocampus has lost volume since the trauma, and my frontal lobe is enlarged. While I am positive I am can manage my symptoms well with lots of hard work, I honestly do not believe I will ever be symptom free or PTSD free, unless there is some cure in the future of course.