Doing ok'ish but things randomly popping up

[LucyLou]

My little ones are back at school now and I don't know if I'm the only one but having them home/ being busy all the time was just the distraction I needed. I wasn't in my head all the time. I'm noticing a bit of a dip but overall, I've been doing OK. Probably due to the fact that I've kind of limited contact with one of my friends too (for a couple of reasons) Thing is that even though I have been doing better....I have random things pop up, like this last couple days, been thinking about things my little ones dad has done, the 2 nights out with my friend that have resulted in....I don't know how to word it but "situations" It kinda reinforces the thinking I have sometimes where I'm never actually going to be 100% / "normal" whatever normal is. I don't have therapy this week, as she's away and I think what scares me about this is that when I bring it up with her next week, she's probably going to say it's coming up because it needs to be processed and I need to be talking.... which, in an ideal world, would be a good thing for me to be doing but it's not that easy-especially as my whole thing is avoidance. I mean, we spoken around things but not gone into anything properly.

 

[arfie]

yeah, in my own case, idle hand really are the devil's workshop and sudden windfalls of time, such as the start of a new academic year, get the devil to tinkering like a mad dog. dunno if the things which pop out of that workshop are random or part of the devil's chaotic plan, but i feel them, by whatever name.

i cope by working projects and/or social interactions i don't get to work on with the kiddos interrupting me at random intervals.