Like many of you all, I am plagued with horrible nightmares relating to my abuse - physical, visual, and auditory sensations and experiences in my sleep. However, after learning in therapy that I frequently "detach" from myself as a defense mechanism to deal with cognitive dissonance and emotional pain, I find one recent dream particularly intriguing:
I dreamed that I was an owl - yes - the actual animal. I could fly and only had owl functions - I could not speak or create logical, human-like thoughts. In my dream, I flew around and felt a sensation that I did not enjoy the sunlight, and I found myself seeking the dark. The most striking part of the dream was that I really WAS the owl. "Me" didn't exist anymore...the real "me" had dissolved away...dissipated into nothingness, and I was an owl in an owl's body with an owls' cognitive abilities, actions, and perceptions.
I was not on any drugs/medications except the SSRIs I have been taking for a few weeks.
Does anyone else experience this sort of "detachment" from yourself? Does anybody think this dream is important to understand myself in any way? Or, is it just a random, meaningless, abstract dream?
Thanks.
I dreamed that I was an owl - yes - the actual animal. I could fly and only had owl functions - I could not speak or create logical, human-like thoughts. In my dream, I flew around and felt a sensation that I did not enjoy the sunlight, and I found myself seeking the dark. The most striking part of the dream was that I really WAS the owl. "Me" didn't exist anymore...the real "me" had dissolved away...dissipated into nothingness, and I was an owl in an owl's body with an owls' cognitive abilities, actions, and perceptions.
I was not on any drugs/medications except the SSRIs I have been taking for a few weeks.
Does anyone else experience this sort of "detachment" from yourself? Does anybody think this dream is important to understand myself in any way? Or, is it just a random, meaningless, abstract dream?
Thanks.