Eerie Confirmation

[rosey]

Thanks for asking @sun seeker . It was terrible. I just cant understand that such ign...

sounds like a room full if people thinking that they can rescue the world. It must have been awful to sit through it.

 

[Bloomy]

Sad thing @rosey is that I dont even think they thought of saving the world. Norwegians have to good lives to understand what the world is really about. So it sounded to me more like a bunch of welfare snobs patronizing real world issues without having a clue to what it was all about. I mean - they should have given trigger warning before starting to read an incest describtion. Its about understanding how to have a minimum of sensitivity. Instead they were laughing at certain passages like it was God darn funny to them. Yeah they were prob insecure, but still.

 

[rosey]

Sad thing @rosey is that I dont even think they thought of saving the world. Norwegi...

That is dreadful. Can you put in a complaint heaven forbid they ever encounter issues. Sound like the type of people that think this stuff is all theory and doesnt actually happen that often.
More importantly though how r u feeling?

 

[Bloomy]

@rosey was thinking about complaint but Im so tired of being seen as "that one". They had even locked the doors for the seminar so I couldnt move freely in and out to breathe. Im ok now, but I was pretty messed up this day do. Cnat really remember what I did after. I know I was quite rude in the seminar to people that came to close. They had the seminar beacause they say they start to understand that this do happen more often then they like to think about. So the seminar was also about how to adress this when it fex happens in children garden. How do you see that a child is traumatized and what do you do about it. Well looks they their thought is "nice" but they are as I said before quite lost concerning this issue. It hurts. Not cause of myself, but cause of those kids that still has to survive this and the incompetent grown ups that isnt able to help them. Still i n2016.

 

[rosey]

@rosey was thinking about complaint but Im so tired of being seen as "that one". The...

I think that people find it so hard to comprehend that they devalue it. I get annoyed when people put themselves close to a situation like "there was a girl at my school that xyz happen to" or "a man 5 streets away" like it gives them full understanding and much of these discussions revolve around how could anyone do that rather than concern for the person that endured it. 2016 and still a long way to go.

 

[Changing4Best]

I was molested in my crib when it was in one position and in another memory, I recall climbing out of it when it was in a different position. I don't know if they moved it or what. I do know that when my parents discovered that my grandfather was molesting me, they moved me to a different bedroom. I am grateful for that, though I have no idea if the discovery and moving me had anything to do with one another. All I know is that I felt a lot safer in the new bedroom.

Even so, I was afraid of robbers, as one of our neighbors had been robbed and their dog had caught the robber and the police had gotten him. Even so, I was still afraid of robbers, so my father, bless him, put up big flood lights outside of our home on all sides of it, so that no robber could come close to our home without being seen. This helped some....

 

[katz]

I'm so glad that I found this thread. Thanks for starting it.

When I started noticing my fuzzy pictures I seem to always have, I began looking for the "why's".
I hate the color yellow. My bedroom when I was a child had yellow walls-and curtains.
I have no square light fixtures in my present home. The shape of the light on the ceiling in my childhood bedroom was some thing that I focused on to escape.
I also started taking a second look at some old photos. Seeing the expressions on my "young" face told me so much. They gave me so much confirmation. These were things that I look at often when I need reassurance that it happened.

On a very different note. I was able to actually look at one of the rooms that "it" happened in. The windows were very different, even though I know they were the other way. I have a very vivid memory of looking at them, (for escape.) So I know that they were different long ago. Because of this, there are no windows like them in my present home.

 

[Bubblegirl]

The truth of my past is coming to me in snippets here and there, adding up to a fairly horrific whol...

It happens. Sometimes it is all you can do to not be dragged into the flashback. Even seeing a family photo album causes near dissociation for me.

 

[katz]

The truth of my past is coming to me in snippets here and there, adding up to a fairly horrific whol...

Oh, yes. Sunseeker. I have done this many times. I have collected photos from my past and I have been very surprised how angry I was at the person taking the photo. The anger on my face is amazing to me. And I'm looking directly at the camera. Such a small child and yet filled with so much rage!

Ahhh! If looks could kill! LOL

I now take every opportunity to look at old family photos--just to look at myself and how I was feeling at the time. I have even found some that showed me how lost and alone I was. I am off in the distance and away from everyone. Even in the group photos, I am trying to get away or at least lean away from everyone.

It's very clear that I did not want to be part of this family.