Undiagnosed Escaped An Abusive Relationship

[quietgurl09]

I'm suffering a lot of pain. I recently escaped an abusive situation and I am in a shelter for kids like me who've been abused. I haven't slept in 62 hours, I feel like every time I close my eyes I see him hurting me, over and over again. I have a 3 month old baby. Less than 72 hours ago he burnt my back with an iron and beat the crap out of me.

Now I'm safe but I keep losing time. The lady in my intake paperwork mentioned I probably have sever case of PTSD. So here I am to get help. The nurse has to see me tomorrow morning they make all girls with severe injuries see the nurse. I am nervous. They keep asking me questions and I'm trying not to think about all of it. Tomorrow I know she will look at it, but I already had a moment where I lost tons of time with just questions.

I don't even remember how I answered. I am hallucinating like a crazy person thinking he is right there across the street, or even when I see other men that have similar body/hairstyle. I am going crazy!!!

 

[TwoDee2ThreeDee]

It's ok, quietgurl09. Just take it slow and I'm so glad you're somewhere safe. You're not going crazy. Our minds have powerful defense mechanisms, but you've taken the first steps towards starting to heal. Don't look for quick fixes, but try to be gentle with your self and realize you are a survivor who hopefully will become a thriver. Welcome and be safe.

And give that baby a hug :hug:

 

[Seasounds]

Welcome! Youve landed on a good site. After such trauma, I'm so glad you are safe.

To increase your safety, and to help you through this tough time, when you see the nurse, tell her the degree of your fear, and of the images you are experiencing. The nurse could arrange/insist for you to see a psychiatrist, and could arrange for you to see a social worker-to help you and your child find a more stable place, for the next few months.

Keep connected! And of course, let us know how you are doing.

 

[StrongHeart]

How wonderful that you were able to escape such a horrible situation! Welcome, and you have taken the first steps on the road to a much better, safer life.

 

[Marf]

You are so brave and strong! Welcome to the forum. I hope they connect you with a good doctor and therapist.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

That sounds awful :( Glad you're not within his reach anymore. Maybe it feels like you are, but that's the fear and the stress playing with your mind... I hope you can have some well-deserved and dreamless sleep that helps you process all this. :hug:

 

[The Albatross]

Glad you're here quietgurl, and that you've found the site. Lots of support and experiences here. A good number of us have been there, having experienced a lot of what your thinking right and going through right now. As you go through the process, perhaps ask if there is an advocate or volunteer who may be available to accompany you?

 

[rightkindofme]

You are very brave for getting out. I'm intensely proud of you. You are going to have a hard journey but I hope you can get the support you need at the shelter. This forum is also a great resource.

I'm so sorry for all that has happened to you.

 

[quietgurl09]

Thank you for your kind words! It helps a lot!!! The nurse put neosporin stuff on the burn...they took me to the ER this morning I had to have an exam done because of the things he did. I had a flashback moment and sort of freaked out at the lady cursing at her when she did the ultrasound. I don't remember much after that, all I know now is I'm back at the shelter, laying here in my room loving my baby boy....Trying to stay sane coming out of an insane situation....

 

[intothelight]

Hi quietgurl,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum! :)

I am sorry for all the terror and confusion you are feeling right now. The one thing I will encourage you to do is get a much counseling and support as you can right now. It is tough, but over time it really will get better.

There is a related site you may find beneficial: MyDomesticViolence.com.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)