Extreme Agitation

[OKRADLAK]

I have not slept for several nights and am having extreme agitation. I am going to the Dr Fri.

It;s l;ike I am being ripped apart..................

I don't know why I am posting this. I just don't want to be alone. Of course, I am alone, but I feel less alone. Not sleeping really makes me want to self harm.............

 

[The Albatross]

(((You're not alone and I'm glad you're posting)))

Redirect... self loving, life affirming... til you can sleep. I'm with you Ok...

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I'm sorry (((((Okradlak))))). Not sleeping can really mess with you.

Are you afraid to sleep?

I am listening....You are not alone.

 

[Megan]

I'm sorry you are feeling like this as well.
I too am agitated every day. I haven't slept in a year and I feel hopeless and want to die as well. I do not really know the cause of this agitation other then the fact that my mind is always blank and now throbs every day like there is pressure.

 

[OKRADLAK]

There is a term called "Akathesia" or something which addresses it. Cannot sit still. I haven ot slept well for 6 months, Megan.HOW do you cope?? A year? I am scared of it now. I lay down and it's all terror. Two hours at most and then wide awake. WHY? I don't understand/ I used to be able to sleep.

 

[mamachick]

Okradlak I am sorry you are going through this. Please try to remember that this will pass. Im glad you are going to the doc. You are not alone.

 

[PerfectlyFlawed]

Im sorry you are feeling this way. Sometimes, sleeping can become a scary time: nightmares, the dark, the unknown of what is happening while you are sleeping, too much time to think.
Sometimes I wake up trembling and not knowing why
.
I can relate to this. It's awful and some things I try are:
...turning on a fan to help me sleep (very soothing)
...light exercise before bed reduces anxiety
...reading a non triggering book for enjoyment
...watching non stressfull television
...taking warm bath before bedtime can relax muscles when anxious

Hope these helped, and I hope you feel better soon!

PerfectlyFlawed

 

[Roline]

Okradlak, I really feel for you :( ((((((((HUGS)))))))

I too feel very alone and cant sleep, and without sleep it just makes everything else so much worse. I went through a severe aggitation episode when I upped my meds because of feeling so crap, but the increased dose made me soooo aggitated that i cut them back down again. The aggitattion has stopped but the depression is bad!! Can't win!!!

The only things I have found that have helped are making a milky hot chocolate, cuddling up with a soft blanket, and sleeping with the dog, and sometimes ironing all night!!!!!!

I really hope you can get some rest and stay strong ;)

 

[TLight]

I didn't sleep for almost 7 years, I swear. No lie. It about destroyed me. Hallucinating and living hell. It might have even been longer, I'm not sure...really bad times.

They put me on everything to knock me out, and for a long time, nothing would. Made me even more crazy.
Then I kicked out my lazy a*s boyfriend, who was a real trigger, Daddy two. Finally, I slept, with the help of the pills.

I still take meds, seroquel helps me sleep. But getting stable and getting triggers under control will help too.

Don't continue like this. You can't. See your doctor.

 

[maddog]

Okradlak, how are you doing? How did you go at the doctor?

I empathise so deeply with your nighttime horrors and the irrational, crazy terror of trying to sleep when somehow it has become such a terrifying impossibility. Sleep and a sense of basic safety are two of the most fundamental aspects of life - it's horrible when they come to feel like the enemy.

Let us know how you're doing.

Maddog