I feel like quitting therapy for the first time in almost 2 years. Nothing to do with my T, or how helpful she is, or anything related to her at all. I haven't felt like I've wanted to run this bad in a really long time. A lot of it has to do with so much happening in the days following my session last week. Sometimes I get this feeling a little bit when things get hard, but don't attempt to act on it at all. Late last night I emailed T and said I think I want to cancel this weeks session, that too much has happened this week. T replied back that maybe it's a good time to come then.
She just sent another email asking to clarify if I really want her to cancel this weeks session. I don't know what I want. I told her that, I also told her I'm scared and I just want to quit everything because I'm scared.
I'm really trying to figure out what I want. I know that because of what has happened this week, I really need to see T this week. I think I'm just scared, and that's why I want to cancel so bad. I know nothing will get better unless I go.
She just sent another email asking to clarify if I really want her to cancel this weeks session. I don't know what I want. I told her that, I also told her I'm scared and I just want to quit everything because I'm scared.
I'm really trying to figure out what I want. I know that because of what has happened this week, I really need to see T this week. I think I'm just scared, and that's why I want to cancel so bad. I know nothing will get better unless I go.