Emotional numbness and detachment is what you are talking about. I know it well. It's called "shock" too. Basically, we numb when a traumatic event happens so we can then deal with. You're not supposed to stay in that numbness bubble, but I've numbed out since I was raped at 3 1/2 years old and never dealt with it because I didn't know how. I still don't. Then, I numbed cause my sperm donor was a tyrant and mental and physical abuser. So, I've numbed for 40+ years and just faked emotions (I don't have any but anger if I try and focus on the past abuse) to get by because I don't know what they are. I'm giving therapy one last shot (thanks to a very generous person on here) and that's it. I really don't know if there's healing for me and what it'll take if there is. I don't have another 40 years to do riddles (and that includes therapy). I've figured out how to numb pretty much permanently (end the pain and anger and rage, too) and just fake the rest. I don't want to do it and would like to be human, but it depends on what this shrink is gonna say. Too many people have played games with me over the years. I don't get emotions and don't understand them at all. So, I've numbed. I don't know anything else.
Bunch of good threads on that on here: [DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/search/7705888/?q=emotional+numbness&o=date&c[node]=26[/DLMURL]
