feeling sad and alone and like i not allowed friends

[yellow rose]

Feeling rather lonely right now. Feeling that even when I try to take interest in people online to make friends that people arent interested.. (not referring to this site) that people say they are interested and like talking but then all of a sudden they start taking less interest and hardly talk to me and it makes me feel wierd
I just want some friends and I cant go out and make them so online is the only way I can get some..
I used to have a friend who i met online they arent my friend anymore and I still feel like the reason they arent is because I am not good enough. Like if they wanted to be friends again they would talk right..
it hurts feeling not good enough for people, feeling like its only others who get friendships that work even if that is online
Just want some relationships/ friendships in my life that go right or that I believe the person truly wants to be a friend.. is that too much to ask for :'(

 

[TTC18]

I know how you feel. I think there's some sort of a disconnect - like people LIKE me... but there's no connection so we're not really friends. It's odd. I have a best friend. We've been best friends for 20 years. I still feel like we're not really friends most of the time. Nothing to do with her, it's just how I interpret everything.

 

[yellow rose]

I don't actually have any friends.
I cant actually say who is my friend because I dont raelly have any
makes me feel like I am rubbish

 

[TTC18]

You're not rubbish. I suspect you just have a hard time connecting with people.
Ask me how many friends I have who I could ask to pick me up if I ran out of gas on the freeway. (hint: 0)
My best friend lives in another state. I can do long-distance friendship with someone like her, who has low friendship expectations. But REAL friendship where you talk about everything, lean on each other, etc? Nope. I love my best friend, but we don't have that kind of friendship. It's very superficial, honestly.
I look at other people and their friends, and it's like a foreign language. You're not alone. I don't have advice to offer, because I'm not good at friendships etc - and have wondered myself why people seem to like me but no one really wants to be my friend. I'm just so isolating/ed now that I don't even want a friend, it feels too intrusive.

 

[Ronin]

Who is, or isn't around you, is not reflection on you, nor your fault. That is just where you are, where they are.

Definitely not rubbish, nor forever stuck at that loneliness.

 

[grit]

I do not know who you are or where you are even though by saying the word rubbish, you sound British! but I like your name and I like your tag - learning.

So even in anonmymousish site, your entrance is noticed.

I hope this dark cloud passes. Hold on.

 

[yellow rose]

Aah thankyou
Yes I am from the United Kingdom
Thankyou very much