Feelings coming back to memories

[WorldWanderer]

So I'm going through cbt for a near death experience in 2022, diagnosed with ptsd-ds. While I've been going through sessions and learning to let emotions be there rather than push them away or escape for this event (which is what caused me to seek help) I'm finding older memories come forward, things I experienced as a child that I'd either buried or could only recall with a sense of being numb.
I sought help because of the event in 2022, not my past.
I don't want to write too much an upset anyone, but physical violence, silent treatment, disregard of a serious medical condition, absent parents one of which vanished, brining up a sibling 2 years my junior. These are all things I've been aware of, but not had the emotion to them, ive almost been quite blasé to them, as I'm going through sessions its like everything is starting to have emotion to it.
So I guess I wondered of anyone else has experienced this? Should I tell my therapist? Is it normal? Can issues that have been buried give me a higher chance of ending up with ptsd now.
Thank you

 

[mszl]

@WorldWanderer, I think it's not only normal but also desired to have emotions tied to traumatic events. Lack of them is coping mechanism of our brains and preferably is should be processed and accepted during therapy, not shuffled under the rag. Because these emotions will bubble up as something else. For me, these are disconnected emotions that pop up out of nowhere in unrelated situations. Plus I'm unable to feel good stuff as well, because my brain will just sweep everything.
I'm glad to hear your CBT therapy is working. I'm currently stuck and unable to reach to my emotions regarding crap from the past. I was 'blaze' as you regarding that until recently when I realized, I'm not over my past, just suppress it (too) well.

I wish you all the best on your healing journey!

 

[Friday]

Should I tell my therapist?

Yep.

Is it normal?

Very.

Can issues that have been buried give me a higher chance of ending up with ptsd now.

That's a dice roll.

(Childhood) Trauma can

- Give a person PTSD (even if it's not symptomatic until years later... that's where a lot of "my divorce, job loss, being cheated on, etc. gave me PTSD myth" comes from... when the reality get getting peanut butter stuck to the roof of your mouth can trigger preexisting ptsd to get all symptomatic & outta control. No exaggeration)

- Exacerbate any number of disorders they're predisposed to (including PTSD) / make those disorders more likely

- Create myriad problems, none of which rise to the level of a disorder.

- Cause zero trouble whatsoever

- Protect from the effects of trauma / create traumatic resilience.

10 people ca go through the exact same thing and come out with 10 totally different results.

I.E. It's easy to see in retrospect, how our lives shaped us, but almost impossible to predict, as there are too many possible outcomes.

 

[arfie]

in my own case, it was normal-for-me. alas, we don't get to repress traumatic memories without those habits spilling into further memory damage, including the **good** memories. i theorate that our organic hard drives (brains) are a bit like our digital hard drives in that a hard drive cannot distinguish porno from bible works. a memory is a memory. blocking one blocks them all. judging good/bad is another process, altogether.

 

[WorldWanderer]

@WorldWanderer, I think it's not only normal but also desired to have emotions tied to traumatic events. Lack of them is coping mechanism of our brains and preferably is should be processed and accepted during therapy, not shuffled under the rag. Because these emotions will bubble up as something else. For me, these are disconnected emotions that pop up out of nowhere in unrelated situations. Plus I'm unable to feel good stuff as well, because my brain will just sweep everything.
I'm glad to hear your CBT therapy is working. I'm currently stuck and unable to reach to my emotions regarding crap from the past. I was 'blaze' as you regarding that until recently when I realized, I'm not over my past, just suppress it (too) well.

I wish you all the best on your healing journey!

thank you

 

[WorldWanderer]

Yep.


Very.


That's a dice roll.

(Childhood) Trauma can

- Give a person PTSD (even if it's not symptomatic until years later... that's where a lot of "my divorce, job loss, being cheated on, etc. gave me PTSD myth" comes from... when the reality get getting peanut butter stuck to the roof of your mouth can trigger preexisting ptsd to get all symptomatic & outta control. No exaggeration)

- Exacerbate any number of disorders they're predisposed to (including PTSD) / make those disorders more likely

- Create myriad problems, none of which rise to the level of a disorder.

- Cause zero trouble whatsoever

- Protect from the effects of trauma / create traumatic resilience.

10 people ca go through the exact same thing and come out with 10 totally different results.

I.E. It's easy to see in retrospect, how our lives shaped us, but almost impossible to predict, as there are too many possible outcomes.

That's really insightful, thank you. I'll certainly tell my T tomorrow and be open about what's going on with me

 

[WorldWanderer]

in my own case, it was normal-for-me. alas, we don't get to repress traumatic memories without those habits spilling into further memory damage, including the **good** memories. i theorate that our organic hard drives (brains) are a bit like our digital hard drives in that a hard drive cannot distinguish porno from bible works. a memory is a memory. blocking one blocks them all. judging good/bad is another process, altogether.

I think of my brain as a hard drive, easiest way to explain what it's like to other people