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Whenever I disassociate I start feeling really guilty and somehow 'weak' compared to all other people in the world who dont disassociate. I know I should be self compassionate because my brain is helping me by coping in a way that brains do. But I cant help but feel weaker even though that's not true. I just feel so numb and paralyzed it breaks my heart that the big dreams that I have for myself seem like too much and I start feeling like I can never achieve a beautiful life because of disassociating sometimes. In that moment I feel defeated and numb. I know it passes but the intensity of it just breaks my heart that I cant function like a normal person and will have to live with disassociation for all my life because theres no cure for it. Disassociation is a coping mechanism which I give myself and my brain compassion for. My brain is doing everything it can to protect me. I just dont want to feel so paralyzed and broken because of disassociation though. I just want to pull myself back out from whenever I'm disassociating because it makes me feel like my lifes over because I'm weak and have disassociation while other successful people dont. What are your thoughts on this? How do you manage disassociation when it gets too much and too foggy?