Finally a therapy appointment!

[Deleted member 8714]

Oh wow! I'm totally blown away by the call I just received from the new therapist. Finally she called. Yes!

I do believe she's an answer to all of my prayers to find a therapist who could handle my childhood abuse. My father was a serial killer. And guess what? My therapist knows about serial killers. So wow! It's quite unusual to find a therapist with this knowledge. She's never had a client with this type of abuse, though she's dealt with ritual abuse which is what I experienced. There's no accident that I've found her. She's qualified in so many ways; 25 years of working with survivors of ritual abuse and childhood abuse and combat vets. She's worked with DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) which used to be called MPD. I used to have that. I'm integrated as of 2006.

My first appointment is next week.

Now I have to write a timeline for her. Oh boy...breathe...I said B-R-E-A-T-H-E...self.

 

[LuckiLee]

Wow. That's great news! Good for you. :)

 

[Deleted member 37085]

So happy for you!

 

[ILoveLife]

That's great! Good luck :)

 

[Teamwork]

Excellent new. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

I'm freaked out about my therapy appointment. Anxious to the max. My body is reacting to it also. I haven't had body reactions in ages. Basically I'm having to fast instead of eat. It didn't help that yesterday I had an allergic reaction to some food I ate the day before. It was delayed because the amount of the offending allergen was small. I've had this before where there's a delayed reaction. So today I'm going to eat a brat diet; banana, rice, applesauce, and dry toast. It's something I learned ages ago as a registered nurse while treating babies/children with diarrhea/dehydration.

 

[Sideways]

Is this going to be the first appointment with this T? If it helpe at all, she's probably anticipating that you're going to be totally stressed out about it.

You have a lot to look forward to in terms of this T, and also your recovery. So try and just ride the emotional wave, take the anxiety in your stride. It's a normal reaction, it really is. Our body doesn't differentiate between good stress and bad stress, yeah? So keep breathing, and just aim to get through this appointment. That's enough of an achievement for the first session:)

 

[Deleted member 8714]

Yes, it my first appointment with her.

My anxiety has never been like this for an appointment with a T.

I think it's from my bad experiences with female Ts. My brief encounter with her on the phone was good. I felt comfortable. Part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop as it has always happened with female Ts. I'll be sure to share that with her if I choose to see her.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am hoping that this first session with your therapist is a good one for you both and that afterwards you will have a real sense of peace of mind for making this first brave step. Hoping for so much to resolved issue wise for you too. I wish you well.:hug: