Finally coming to accept flashbacks as flashbacks.

[Aideun32]

I've been suffering from flashbacks for a very long time, without accepting what they actually are. I feel much cleaner when i had felt very dirty not knowing what i was feeling. Although going through this i feel tired and afraid of loosing touch with myself. has anyone walked the same path?

Typos galore. ^

 

[Friday]

For sure.

Walked around all day yesterday smelling blood & rust & decay. Everything smelled like death. All day long. :sick: Ugh. I hate it. I have a few grounding tricks that usually work ( :inlove: camphor & cold water & mouthwash & soap!), that don't, when I'm also beating myself up. So it was a very LadyMcBeth kind of day. :wtf:

I finally broke the spell sometime last night. OMFG. Clean, clear, beautiful air! Bliss!

But before I knew these were flashbacks I could easily go days/weeks with the world reeking of smoke or blood, driving me crazy. Went to some pretty extreme lengths to get away from those feelings.

These days it's usually a lot faster. Notice. Take a moment to ground out & done. Yesterday was a bit of an aberration. The noticing can take awhile, but once I have, I can usually ground out pretty fast. Oh hell no! Nope! Not this! Goodbye & don't let the door hitcha where the good lord splitcha. Buh-bye. Bye-bye now. Go. Away. & Finis.

Yesterday I also had to A) Stop beating myself up & B) Bleed off a ton of stress before C) Grounding would work. Which also happens.

 

[Aideun32]

I have a few grounding methods that work, i still need some help though. Because i get impatient when the flashbacks come and my brain starts to do lots of acrobatics to avoid realizing what is actually going on with my body. It can get very convoluted and messy. I feel all sorts of pain around my "bathing suite" from general discomfort all the way to stinging. It can get lonely and debilitating. Please comment if you have had a similar experience.

I should also mention that these flashbacks come in forms like "pressure" as if hands or appendages are around parts of my body.

 

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I should also mention that these flashbacks come in forms like "pressure" as if hands or appendages ar...

When I feel the pressure on my neck, I can usually realize it isn't an actual hand by feeling my neck, but the sensation won't just go away. It's like I have to ride it out till it fizzles away on its own. This works best when I remain calm.