Are these CPTSD flashbacks?

[cocolee89]

Hello everyone I'm not sure if I'm having flashbacks or not.

I don't feel strong emotions because my emotions are very numb 24/7 but I will think of the event that happen then I was start having conversations in my head to other imagination people over and over and over again I repeat what I'm saying in my head for hours, I get frustrated and start feeling very bleh but like I said I don't feel emotions very strongly sometimes a memory will make me really want to cry but I can only get two tears out then I stop. I'm also feeling anxiety in my chest sometimes not all the times

 

[Movingforward10]

What you describe sounds similar to what I used to do. Not sure if it's a flashback, but ruminating and internal reenactment, or internal attempts at evoking emotion? I think I did it to justify having distressed feelings but like you describe also a disconnect to the feelings. A confusing and conflictual space to be in.

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

Doesn’t sound like a flashback to me, those are re-living events, but when I read it earlier it sounds like rumination. I do it.

Used to be a very strong compulsive thing for me, I think it’s common for trauma.
I especially relate to the frustration and “bleh” feeling.

 

[arfie]

you gave a fair description of several of my ptsd symptoms. as i understand them from my own psychotherapy:

I don't feel strong emotions because my emotions are very numb 24/7

dissociation. i have repressed my emotions in order to achieve that very numb.

I will think of the event that happen then I was start having conversations in my head to other imagination people over and over and over again I repeat what I'm saying in my head for hours

intrusive thoughts. mine feel like little puppet shows in my head where the puppets are in charge

I get frustrated and start feeling very bleh but like I said I don't feel emotions very strongly sometimes a memory will make me really want to cry but I can only get two tears out then I stop.

repressing. it feeds the dissociation.

I'm also feeling anxiety in my chest sometimes not all the times

long term physical side effect. all that repressing is hard work. it takes a physical toll. my doctors assure me that the long term side effects of anxiety are quite lethal in the long run.

but that is me and every case is unique. i get flashbacks, too, but you didn't describe them here.

steadying support while you sort your own case.

 

[cocolee89]

you gave a fair description of several of my ptsd symptoms. as i understand them from my own psychotherapy:

dissociation. i have repressed my emotions in order to achieve that very numb.

intrusive thoughts. mine feel like little puppet shows in my head where the puppets are in charge

repressing. it feeds the dissociation.

long term physical side effect. all that repressing is hard work. it takes a physical toll. my doctors assure me that the long term side effects of anxiety are quite lethal in the long run.

but that is me and every case is unique. i get flashbacks, too, but you didn't describe them here.

steadying support while you sort your own case.

I was given prazosin four days ago and went from having these thoughts almost all day to barely being there anymore including the memories of the event.