First Time Post... My Ptsd Is Worsening. Any Advice Is Appreciated!

[In Exile]

What has helped cut down your cycles?

One of the biggest things was dumping overboard advice from people who didn't understand PTSD.;)

I switched careers among other things, as I deal with my issues. It was just too much stress and I couldn't handle it.

Can you delay law school? When do you need to make a decision?

Don't worry about what "everyone" has to say, they aren't the ones dealing with PTSD.

 

[missjasmyn]

@In Exile : THANK YOU. That's what I keep thinking... But its so hard when no one else would understand my decision to do so. I can delay law school for a year by deferring if I need to. I'm going to make the decision around the time that school starts after having gone through a bit more therapy. If I feel like its going to be stressful enough to completely send me back into a full blown PTSD mode, then I will absolutely give it a year and work on myself for a whole year. What career did you switch from and to, if you don't mind me asking?

 

[billie]

Depersonalisation, inability to function, inability to stay safe. loss of time, memory,self medicating, suicidal. In my theapy sessions I am now just scaping the surface of repressed experiances and the feelings that were locked away. I guess I am greiving at the moment. I have been at a higher functioning state but I am just riding it like a wave I guess, trying to stay afloat. Okay hope that helps, stay safe hun.

 

[The Albatross]

I have likely had PTSD since childhood with multiple traumas since then. I have worked my ass of basically independently since about three years before my membership on the forum... about 6 in total, when someone recognized that what I was describing was disassociation and DID type behaviors (lost time). I've "always" had it. But I didn't know what it was until I dealt with physical issues and alcoholism first.

I have tackled the difficulty as best as I am able so far... with wide reading, the forum, experiences with recovery and some willingness to look for and find tools... not to accommodate my issue, but to kick it as best as I am able. I have glitches and some issue, but in the three or so years I've been here, I'm better than I was by all accounts... not worse.

 

[missjasmyn]

@billie : Sorry to hear, and I feel most of the same things. I hope you are doing better. Thank you for all of your responses, and please let me know if you ever need anything![DOUBLEPOST=1402893046,1402892821][/DOUBLEPOST]@The Albatross : That is a long time to be dealing with these issues. I'm so glad to hear that you were able to find help in all the different areas. I'll definitely try doing the same thing. It makes me feel very hopeful to hear that there are a lot of ways that I can get better

 

[The Albatross]

Not really a long time when you pause to consider that the endeavor (having PTSD) is a life issue. The solution, therefore is lifestyle change.

 

[billie]

Thanks @missjasmyn . I have a very good medical team; it's just the ptsd train!!!. With your uni are you in Australia? I am on minimum subjects (one subject with special conditions) and on disability. Hope that helps.

 

[In Exile]

International business. I now teach kindergarteners English. haha. My pay is only 20% of what I was making before, but I don't want to kill myself anymore.

 

[missjasmyn]

@In Exile : That's so great to hear! I'm sure the stress is at least 1/2 of what it used to be!

 

[The Albatross]

@In Exile - relate, some things money can't buy. I work in geriatric care agency and until recently also a not for profit. It is not the $$$ the drives me so much as the continued ability to perform in as much as I am able. It gets better with practice however.

 

[billie]

Defently worth it @In Exile. Glad you picked an easier path.

 

[In Exile]

My (still young) kids may not get a college education paid for, but they'll have a living daddy.

I had a great Father's Day with them yesterday. They really love their daddy.

Who knows, I maybe able to get a more demanding job at some point, but for now, this works out so much better.

The important thing is to do what is necessary to get better.