Dear forum dwellers
I have an issue which I would love to discuss with and hear about from you.
For introduction purpose I refer to this post of mine: [DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/what-a-wonderful-place-you-created-here.17517/[/DLMURL]
Now ... I would love to go study this autumn. The school and the people (teachers & future students) there feel allready like family. The issue results out of, that I wont be able to learn enough money to also support my beloved partner. I don't wont to let her down, but I also know, that I have to look after myself and don't give up my life.
We talked about it a few times allready and it's her biggest wish to be independent. Being dependent on me is also a stress factor for her. But she tried a few jobs and couldn't manage, so it's a bit risky. What would come with me studying is living more separatly then we do right now.
Is that to much stress for her? Does anybody of you have experience in how to handle such situations about planning the future (I bet you do :)?
Just this weekend we had a wonderful experience. We had one of the biggest fights ever, resulting with her attacking me physically and me sleeping on the couch ... :) For the weekend I was gone for the school assessment, where I got a glimps of what awaits me there. At the same time she got back together with an old friend and had a beautiful time filled with meditation, spirituallity and partying.
Even if I worried the whole weekend if she will kill herself, the decision to leave her was right - THIS time! It could have come differently. And I'm happy it didn't.
I have an issue which I would love to discuss with and hear about from you.
For introduction purpose I refer to this post of mine: [DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/what-a-wonderful-place-you-created-here.17517/[/DLMURL]
Now ... I would love to go study this autumn. The school and the people (teachers & future students) there feel allready like family. The issue results out of, that I wont be able to learn enough money to also support my beloved partner. I don't wont to let her down, but I also know, that I have to look after myself and don't give up my life.
We talked about it a few times allready and it's her biggest wish to be independent. Being dependent on me is also a stress factor for her. But she tried a few jobs and couldn't manage, so it's a bit risky. What would come with me studying is living more separatly then we do right now.
Is that to much stress for her? Does anybody of you have experience in how to handle such situations about planning the future (I bet you do :)?
Just this weekend we had a wonderful experience. We had one of the biggest fights ever, resulting with her attacking me physically and me sleeping on the couch ... :) For the weekend I was gone for the school assessment, where I got a glimps of what awaits me there. At the same time she got back together with an old friend and had a beautiful time filled with meditation, spirituallity and partying.
Even if I worried the whole weekend if she will kill herself, the decision to leave her was right - THIS time! It could have come differently. And I'm happy it didn't.
