Getting Irritated Reading Threads

[Ocean5]

I think people with hold (not even intentionally) lots of info not shared.

I second that.

Some of us went though great degrees of abuse from parents that we will never share...will I wake-up alive tomorrow morning? Will I come home from school to find police there, and family dead? Daily fact of life for some of us as young kids.

I totally get being whether you can relate, or not. It's all individual. Wish you the best Tony.

 

[Ocean5]

be honest sound like day to day life problems, Is it just me, loosing parents is a part of life and I think of my parents often but it's not what wakes me up at night.

I really mean this with "no disrespect" to you, and appreciate your service as a 1st Responder! Trust me I ran to a 1st Responders house many times as kid to prevent my father from suicide by police. I knew 1st Responder could "warn police" over radio better than a kid could. You guys saved my families life more than once as kids from my father.

Guess this is also for others on forum to understand....or try to...

Sometimes we post very vague things. We have to leave out details to protect ourselves. I've lived under P.O. Box, or private mailbox, since age 16 to protect myself from my father. Yes he murdered people, and was locked away for many years more than once.

Only person who knew my physical address was my mom. She wouldn't give to his relatives when he wanted it - just to protect me. I know what he is capable of - as did my mom. She passed away recently. Only person who ever really protected me.

I tried to rebuild relationship with my "so called father." He kept asking what he ever did to me to traumatize me so much as kid... Finally told him, and told how psychiatrist categorized level of abuse (to the "extreme scale" beyond emotion and physical abuse....living in daily fear of death.)

2 days ago - disowned.

His response...."do not email or call me again." This is while I am going through a life threatening virus. And because virus is so serious I gave him my address. Once I am well enough I have to move now. He's too dangerous, and unpredictable.

Degree some of us go through to protect ourselves, and feel safe. With one click I can make it look like I am in one of 40 countries, or any of most major U.S. cities.

If anyone need to disappear for safety. Feel free to send private conversation. I will give info.

What ever happen to parent's protecting their kids?

 

[RuthieJujube]

So I keep reading things I can't relate to my trauma and to be honest sound like day to day life problems, Is it just me, loosing parents is a part of life and I think of my parents often but it's not what wakes me up at night.

I keep thinking about this comment. I understand where you are coming from, but I suppose in my PTSD mind, this did feel like jab. I'm a new member of the forum and I have mentioned the recent passing of my father in a previous post. This isn't why I have PTSD but it has caused a serious flair in my symptoms this past year.

My heart has been so heavy thinking of, obsessing over how he passed. We found my father overdosed on methamphetamine. Then we had to clean up the broken pipes and the pornography and the piles of filth from his bedroom. We had to hold his hand in the hospital bed and make the choice to pull the plug, knowing that now there would never be a chance to "make it right."

We all live different experiences and have different types of relationships with our families. As someone who suffered extensive abuse during childhood, I think it was natural for this experience to flair up my PTSD symptoms.

I know others have touched on this already in this forum, but I really felt like I needed to get this out. I am not weak or lesser because this is part of my baggage. I can't relate to what it's like to be in combat, or to be a first responder, or to live that kind of high stress job. I respect you for it and I hope you'll respect me for my experiences as well.

 

[Gadgie]

Well you came to the right place to "get this out" as you said in your post. I think everyone in these forums are doing the same as you, we are all in the same boat, as the saying goes.

We can all understand and relate to the posts on here, and that's a good thing really, as if you talk to another person, who hasn't got, or ever had PTSD, they don't know what you are trying to say, or understand you.

 

[RussH]

there is a reason we do not compare traumas on the forum. What may seem ordinary or mundane to you was horrifically life changing for someone else. It is not the depth of the trauma, but the person's non processing of the trauma.

I do understand the horror of being on the scene of a multi-fatality accident. I have been on a few. It did not cause or worsen my PTSD. Mine was caused from something you might consider ordinary or mundane. And this is not to criticize your post; it is simply to state that it does not matter what causes the PTSD. What matters is supporting one another as we deal with the effects our trauma have on us.

 

[Anarchy]

@TonyG sorry that you are finding yourself in a bad place at the moment.

There is so much here to relate to, all of the way from the first line of your lead post.

Irritability, and difficulty concentrating are both characteristics for many of us, as we are now. what sets us off is highly individual.

This is an exaggerated caricature, to illustrate what I'm going to try to say:

Supporter's first post:
"I met this guy on a dating site three hours ago. He told me he was a vet. and has PTSD. We seemed to be getting along so well and now he's gone silent on me.
I'm so worried and upset.
What can I do?"

I don't think I've seen anyone that sensitive, but there are people who are almost that sensitive and as the guys have said we don't get the back story of why, but occasional trolls aside, they clearly are sensitive.

Some people seem to have the psychological equivalent of third degree burns. no skin at all, no protection or tolerance for certain stressors.

I couldn't believe that anyone could get bullied by and fall out with as many people as one of my exes. At least I couldn't believe it when I was still with her, I can believe it now! That's how she was. For her, a week at work without feeling bullied or seriously invalidated would have been a major post worthy event (I don't think she's a member here).

For living my life more normally and more fulfilling, I've learned so much in the year I've been coming here, from the mundane day to day posts of our amazing members, 14 years old and upwards.