It has been totally amazing the different ways my brain is processing this break up and me trying to stay in a middle ground with things. My nightmares increased ten fold this past week. Ugly nasty stuff. I realize it's my brain rebeling partly because of change and partly because I'm in new vulnerable territory. I am testing my wings out on manything for the first time. At the sametime it is amazing that part of your brain that wants to hang on to everything, it readapts itself on how manytimes it can barrage you with negative stuff. So now instead of just being happy to criticize me, it is now flooding me with it's concept of my failures. All, I got to say to that side is stfu already, I got the point. Geez.