Grappling With Starting Cbt

[ghotiff]

So the "me" I want back is who I was five to fifteen years ago.

On the presumption (general consensus presented on this forum) that ptsd is not curable), I feel the goal of getting back to "you" is too large to achieve within a short program, and a perception of failure (if you failed to achieve an overly optimistic goal) would not be healthy for you.

Is there a smaller goal that you could aim for. One of the quotes I love is "small enough to acheive, big enough to matter".

 

[Sandstone]

Is there a smaller goal that you could aim for.

Weird. That set off an emotional reaction, with lots of fear. I don't know how to do the smaller goals, andI know that when I've tried, I've failed. When I fail I have no right to be. And running from the optician was the last time I saw one of NHS services.

I need to take three different conditions to the doctors, I need to go to the opticians, I need to go to the dentist. But because I've run away from the doctors and the optician I'm afraid to try and fail. I have no tools to use, no way to identify anything between it being OK and having to run NOW. And I'm very afraid of looking at myself enough to be able to identify that.

 

[ghotiff]

Based on what you wrote maybe your goal would be to not let fear of failure stop you trying to do things you want to do.