Has Anyone Been Here?

[Jesseve]

I've been used to the flash backs for a long time now constant memories of a horrible childhood but lately they've been little screen shots or clips of dreams along with memories. Bad or good but equally non-important. I was able to deal with the new assault on my everyday life but a couple weeks ago after a flashback I felt odd. Disconnected and distant.

I tried to look around for something or someone to ground myself or in a way, bring me back I guess but it felt like the things I was looking at weren't my own. It was a scary experience but the next day I woke up and felt fine a little hazy about the day befor.it happened again maybe a week or so later and now I'm starting to wonder with the ups and downs, anxeity, flashbacks, crazy fear of driving and socialization issues of everyday life without therapy or medication, is this yet another thing that I get to add to my " I'm just going to have to deal" list????? I'd like to know if anyone has gone through this to and has any experienced coping methods?

All my thanks-
Rosemarie

 

[Leanne1]

My T recommended doing what you did, looking around to reconnect and ground myself. That didn't work for me either.

It can be scary, I agree. I have found that smelling a scent can really help me. I have a little bottle of lavender oil in my bag. I put a little bit on me, or something else, and just smell it and breath and it really helps.

My T said that to use your sences you have to be in your body. So some times, if I don't have a scent, I just feel a texture. I usually feel a fuzzy blanket, or a smooth stone or something, and then compare it to the feeling of another .

It is strange at first, and then it brings me back.

 

[Jesseve]

It's so hard to get help when you're broke, have no insurance and don't know where to start :( thank you for the options