Poll Has Ptsd Effected Your Sexual Preferences?

[Lady of Longbourn]

Maybe this is a obvious question. But the more I think of it, the more it seems very broad.

While past events like, a woman being raped, may make you more afraid of men. But also... maybe PTSD makes you more isolate and you find comfort with the person you find safe.

I am bisexual. I can't stay it has everything to do with my past experiences, I think it also has to do with my view of life ( I am far less judgement and more open to new ideas) , and who might understanding. How PTSD changed the way I think.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

from wikipedia...."Sexuality in humans generates profound emotional and psychological responses. Some theorists identify sexuality as the central source of human personality."

 

[Crl1983]

Edited answer as poll changed. No it has not affected my preferences, if you mean as in sexual orientation. It has affected my sexuality in other ways, though.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

That's interesting. For me its like almost ( I can be very tom boyish though) the opposite. I will wear dresses to make a point, like I am female hear me roar kind of thing? lol My T always tells me how independent I am. So I challenge a lot...to the point of daring someone to hurt me again. I don't flaunt myself, but that's how I see dresses, or feminine things.

 

[sea]

"Sexuality in humans generates profound emotional and psychological responses. Some theorists identify sexuality as the central source of human personality."

Never thought I'd respond to one of these kinds of things but that quote pretty much resonates with me completely. There truly is this giant source of energy and understanding that most Humans have, to connect with one another, and that is completely absent with me. I get it sometimes and I just shove it down, because I don't know how to deal with it healthily. For me it is mostly the connection aspect, and I think it is just connection in general. Positively connecting with somebody on a physical/mental scale is difficult for me. I've had periods in my life where I went around rampaging, totally insane, and it was empty and meaningless and useless and I was pretty much using it as a way to damage myself, and hurt myself, and prove to myself I was this weird unlovable creature that had no connection whatsoever.

Having no sexuality is like being completely alien, completely foreign. It separates you from other people even platonically, honest to god it does, because I think most level of interaction comes from that innate sense. And when that sense is damaged, or it is f*cked up as you grow up, then that whole part of your functioning is just destroyed, and a whole level of communication with people is just wiped, and it is totally empty and sterile. I guess I must have some sort of thing in a way but I try not to engage it on a physical level, because I have always ended up messed because of it. There's been like two or three times in my life I have felt what might be considered normal, but ended up throwing myself in a spin because of my thoughts and so on. Blah, blah, short answer: Yes.

 

[Rob_Dog19]

I feel like my ptsd is probably the number one factor in my sexuality...like everything depends on it. I have bipolar related to ptsd and when I am on a manic mood swing, I am overtly sexual, because that's the person who I would likely be had I not been abused...and when I am in a depressive state, I cant even look at boys, nobody can touch me...you can always tell when I am down because I won't be wearing makeup, my hair will be greasy and I am in the most comfortable clothes possible...

 

[Crl1983]

"I will wear dresses to make a point, like I am female hear me roar kind of thing"

You are very courageous for that.

I wish I was brave enough to wear dresses. Don't want to be mouse-girl anymore.

 

[Srain]

From extreme to extreme, mentally and physically.

 

[Sterre]

PTSD has affected my sexuality in an indirect way. Because of the PTSD symptoms I use medication in order to keep these symptoms under control. A strong side effect of my medication ( AD) is the loss of sexual interrest, or sexual functions.So my sexdrive is mostly at a very low point now, for over 15/16 years. ( that's how long I've been taking these meds)

So, yes, my PTSD has affected my sexuality, but not becuase of the trauma.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Don't want to be mouse-girl anymore.

I know this feeling, and something I still can be. But when cornered I fight, I grew strong...and its good and bad.

 

[anthony]

I have edited this poll to be more descriptive of what is being asked, being sexual preferences, to remove confusion.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Thanks...sometimes ( most of the time) I word things badly.