Having A Rough Time

[AngelaMarie]

I want to wish you well in your situation. I had the same situation with Doctors just putting me on medications. I was switched over and over until I refused to do it anymore. I have heard the same from many other people. However, I hope you have the good fortune to find a Doctor that will treat you well. They have to be out there.

Also, giving you a (((hug))). Warm regards!

 

[jokuzzi]

The more I read on this sight, the more I see how therapy can help. But my question is...how do you keep going on with life (work, paying bills, being involved in life) while going through this painful process? You could say at this point I am "functioning normally" on the outside, I go to work, parties, other functions, but inside I hurting. I'm afraid to be alone but I can't wait to get away from everyone.

I take offense at the slightest, thoughtless things (they're not slight to me though). I want to sleep or drink it away, but can't allow myself to. I try to cry when it's convenient (when I'm alone) but am afraid if I do I'll never stop. I feel like a complete contradiction to how the world sees me. I don't even think the people closest to me even know me.

 

[seedling]

jokuzzi,

I just got back from a trip so I just saw your reply. I think the way I'm getting through the painful process is by going very slowly. Sometimes I wish the world would stop so I could just deal with the PTSD and nothing else. But it doesn't. I've realized that I take therapy one little bit at a time. Sometimes I am impatient with myself but then later see that I need to go slowly so it's not so overwhelming. It's painful but it's also shedding the pain.

The "feeling overwhelmed" part is where meds can be helpful. It's your personal decision when and how much if you decide to try meds. It's also a time when a good support system and personal coping techniques come in to play. There are ways to help yourself through it.

I know some people have cut back on responsibilities if possible during the worst of dealing with PTSD. I find I've pared it down to doing what I really need to do and I say no to adding anything more. I am still dealing with symptoms daily but they are not as exaggerated as they were before I was in therapy - I think some of the pressure has slowly been released. This allows me to cope better.

You'll read often on here about people taking notice of small steps forward, that's been so true for me. They all add up over time and things do change.

Hope you're doing well.

 

[Abbi]

Welcome.

Briefly, no matter how painful therapy is the key. If it needs to be supported by medication then so be it. Don't be down on the general practitioner...what else do you expect of them. This is so far outside a GP's area of expertise.

Therapy...therapy...if its of any use yes, eventually it will be painful. The trauma is painful. There is no panacea to make it all go away. Sorry. If you go into therapy and remain all warm and fuzzy and never touch on the issues causing you pain...well save your money and just eat chocolate. ;)

In encourage you to read the articles here and ask for support when needed. Good luck.

 

[jokuzzi]

Seedling,

Welcome back. I hope you had a great vacation. I can't tell you how much I appreciate you. I would like to talk with you more in the future and maybe exchange sob stories etc. I know it would do me a world of good to talk to another mom in a similiar situation. I'm a little limited tonight but if it's okay with you, I'd like to communicate more, soon.

Thank you for being you.

 

[seedling]

mmmm Chocolate therapy - I bet there's a lot of money in that :)

Yes, there's just no getting rid of this thing except by doing what needs to be done. A T that fits and therapy that shows some progress over time. I find that when I'm going every week now I get in a space where I'm more at peace (?) with the fact that my life is this way now. I reflect on my session and plan for the next one, think about how I might move forward, or what I need to bring up. It seems normal.

Since I've been away from therapy for 4 weeks now I seem to feel the divide with the real world more and want to lurch toward denial and the feeling of the unreality of it all. I have therapy tomorrow and will be diving in again.