Having Full Blown Panic Attack Now

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Friends dad died last night. I'm sure that's part of it... Triggers my own fathers death. But.. I don't know.

I was doing so well. Exercising every day, doing T's exercises mostly. The past few days I've just slid into nothingness.

Mindlessly watching tv while playing mindless games on my phone. Not taking any calls/texts/emails. Not eating properly & therefore in almost constant pain (recently diagnosed stomach ulcers).

I just can't. I can't. I don't want to try anymore. No one truly understands the effort it takes to do the smallest tasks... ARGH!!

Now I'm mad. Sad to mad in 5 seconds. Must be a record somewhere

 

[angrypanda]

That's is a super crummy spot to be in, PTSD flare ups are crippling! Remember to be patient with yourself and lots of self care. It will pass, hugs and prayers if you accept :)♡

 

[Della]

@angrypanda it's natural to feel this way because you have lost a parent. First I would like to say that I'm very sorry for your lost. I have not walked that path yet because both of my parents are still alive. When I think about when that day will come, I get very said and I cry because I know that it's something that I'm not looking forward to. But, it's ok to get angry right now and to have mixed emotions because of the death of the parent. Take as long as you feel the need to greive my dear. You are in the right place to get support for your sadness. So, try not too get too overwhelmed until you get sick and end up in the hospital ok? I know it's easier said than done though. Try to eat even if nothing but small portions because you will get weak and dehydrated. Try to keep yourself going as well. If you don't do it, nobody else will. I want you to hang in there and if need be go to counseling if you are not doing so already. Best of luck to you dear. :-)

 

[The Albatross]

First off it's your friends dad... your dad is in the past. Most often for me the best way to deal with grief is to do something for the loved one... so that would be doing something for your friend. Spinning a couple to a few days is one thing... but in reality, though it reminds you... you need to be there for your friend and endeavor to be bigger than the sum of your parts, creating a gap where your experience, and you're friends loss is at.

 

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First off it's your friends dad... your dad is in the past. Most often for me the best way to dea...

First of all, thanks for clarifying that it was my friends dad that just died.

I agree 100% with u that I need to be there for her. I immediately looked into booking a ticket to visit her and then realized I just couldn't... No money and the stress of traveling too much for me. My problem is that I get too involved. I feel the pain as if it were my own & that's what's so crippling :(

 

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:hug:oftentimes with me, if I've been through something then a friend goes through a similar or the same thing I will do the same, feel the pain like it's my own. It's hard, but it can be a gift to your friend as well. You understand and know exactly what she's going through so you can help each other out from experience.
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ETA- I also do that even if I haven't experienced something. Not fun, feeling other's pain and putting it on you.

 

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:hug:oftentimes with me, if I've been through something then a friend goes through a similar...

Yeh... Thanks for understanding