Having trouble doing anything today...

[SeekingAfrica]

This hasn't happened to me in months, maybe since last fall, I think. But I'm having one of those high-anxiety days where my brain feels like a mush, and any task, big or small, feels huge.

Every task takes preparation and breaks and trying to be calm. I had to go to the ATM and store and had to stop few times whilst walking, just to close my eyes and try to breathe calmly. Absolutely forgot what I was supposed to buy and got whatever looked good at the time. Every task feels hard and anxiety-inducing,, any task I push forward feels like it's super important and I am going to have consequences for doing so little today. And every task is so tiring. I need to wash my hair right now and even that feels too tiring. The weather is nice and sunny. It isn't good, doing less tasks, but nothing deadl will happen even if I do very little today- but the anxiety makes everything feels worse, whatever I do or skip.
Everything feels so incomprehensible, every small task needing me to calm down to stop my heart from racing. When I was out I kept walking, but couldn't feel my body. I can't concentrate either, making tasks that are for work or planing harder. I don't know what to do, what will help me. If I push to do stuff will i have the same kind of day tomorrow? If I take some time for selfcare, will that feel incrementally worse for taking time off mid-week? And obviously, making decisions while being anxious doesn't help.

I used to have systems in place for bad days, but it's been a while since it's been this bad...

 

[Wonder Woman]

Taking time for self-care is never wasted. Even if you think you can't afford to spend the time to get your needs met, the truth is you cannot afford to neglect yourself.

Take the time to wash your hair. I'm almost certain it will make you feel a little better.

Sending you thoughts of peace, concentration, and calm.

 

[Rainman8772]

Feel where you are. Got me today too.

 

[Deanna]

It's getting to me too. I'm such a hard head but with no direction, I can't think right. You're not alone!

 

[pam4him]

It's okay. Deep breath. Our minds and bodies weren't made to go 100 miles per hour 24/7. We need and have to rest. Sometimes our mind or body does that for us, through anxiety, illness, injury, etc. Instead of feeling like you've wasted a day, count it as self-care. You might even start putting it on your schedule. Maybe 1 night a week is all about you, a full Saturday a month, and perhaps even a weekend a quarter, then 1 week of vacation. It sounds like if you can get to where you give yourself permission for an off day, you will be okay. You got this! Prayers for peace and real rest.