Hell

[Kintsugi]

I know this really isn't helpful, Casey, but it's all I can think: I wish I could rescue you.

Please hang in there. I'm rooting for you. I really, really am.

 

[Powder]

I was given Ambien when I was induced the first night.

Can you ask for one Ambien tablet to get sleep. Sleep deprivation is bad news for PTSD, for sure.

So sorry that you are in this very stressful circumstance on your own. I'm here to help any way I can.

 

[Casey_03]

I wish they had ambien here. They don't, they don't have any sleep aids that won't harm baby. They gave me herbal sedatives earlier when i was hyperventilating but it didn't help. PTSD is not a recognized illness here. So They may transfer me to a mental hospital but are reluctant because i'm foreign.

 

[Casey_03]

I have to work in an hour.

 

[Kintsugi]

You can't call your employer and explain you just had emergency surgery on your kidney???

 

[Casey_03]

I did that with my main job and now am losing my maternity pay for 'taking leave before the baby is even born,' as he put it. So i have to keep doing my second job, which is a new one, or i won't have any money to survive/feed baby after hospital.

 

[Casey_03]

It's a probation period. They agreed to take me while pregnant, knowing that i'd go on leave right after the trial period, but said the higher ups would just find someone else if i can't at least complete trial period.

 

[Kintsugi]

Does your first employer understand that this operation was unforeseen and not elective?

I wish I could talk to all of these bastards for you myself.

 

[Casey_03]

Yes, first employer does but doesn't care. He hates me. I already hired a lawyer once when he tried to essentially fire me for being pregnant.

 

[Casey_03]

I don't think it was just a stress reaction. I don't want this baby anymore.

 

[mary1979]

What the hell did they do to your kidney while still pregnant?

I am mind blown at this.

Of course you feel the way you do, you are in fight or flight mode x ten.

Why are you even out of hospital?

I am so confused.

 

[Casey_03]

I'm not out of hospital, I'm stuck in the hospital. They said they had to operate on the kidney or it could hurt the baby (if I went into toxic shock).