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Kyraen
Been trying to do breathing techniques when I feel a panic attack coming but doesn't seem to help. Probably because when I'm around my husband he thinks I'm acting different cause I'm hiding something or lying. this makes everything worse obviously. I think I might need medication?
Anyways I had this site open on my phone as I was reading through your replies and my kid started freaking out so I set the phone down and my husband picked it up to look something up. He started to cry and told me i should just leave then if I wanted to take advice from "a bunch of idiots on the internet without proper degrees" and of coarse this starts a fight. I told him all I was looking for was advice on how to handle him when he gets out of control and he blamed the way I act and the way I treat him. Maybe he is right, I can be mean and I know it especially when I'm angry but it's getting harder for me to push through his negativity about everything and everyone. I know he doesn't want to be the way he is but maybe he has been that way for so long he just doesn't know how to be happy anymore? When our fights get really bad I think about leaving. Then I get threats about him taking our son or about him killing himself and I guess I have started to shut down emotionally when that happens because it just doesn't seem to matter that I'm unhappy. His moments of crazy seem to be father apart now then they were so maybe he is trying? But when those moments come they come out of nowhere and are worse then they were before. I think we are gonna try couseling before I make the choice to stay or go. If he actively wants the help and responds to it then I will stand with him but if we begin to address his problems and he fights it I don't see what else I can do but stop fighting for him. You all are right I have a child to think of and he shouldn't grow up with constant turmoil. But he does deserve to have a healthy functional family and I will fight for that as long as I can still see that there is hope... It depends on him at this point... Our first session is scheduled for early Sept. Cross your fingers and send good vibes for me please. I can use all the help I can get. This is my last attempt to keep my family together...
Anyways I had this site open on my phone as I was reading through your replies and my kid started freaking out so I set the phone down and my husband picked it up to look something up. He started to cry and told me i should just leave then if I wanted to take advice from "a bunch of idiots on the internet without proper degrees" and of coarse this starts a fight. I told him all I was looking for was advice on how to handle him when he gets out of control and he blamed the way I act and the way I treat him. Maybe he is right, I can be mean and I know it especially when I'm angry but it's getting harder for me to push through his negativity about everything and everyone. I know he doesn't want to be the way he is but maybe he has been that way for so long he just doesn't know how to be happy anymore? When our fights get really bad I think about leaving. Then I get threats about him taking our son or about him killing himself and I guess I have started to shut down emotionally when that happens because it just doesn't seem to matter that I'm unhappy. His moments of crazy seem to be father apart now then they were so maybe he is trying? But when those moments come they come out of nowhere and are worse then they were before. I think we are gonna try couseling before I make the choice to stay or go. If he actively wants the help and responds to it then I will stand with him but if we begin to address his problems and he fights it I don't see what else I can do but stop fighting for him. You all are right I have a child to think of and he shouldn't grow up with constant turmoil. But he does deserve to have a healthy functional family and I will fight for that as long as I can still see that there is hope... It depends on him at this point... Our first session is scheduled for early Sept. Cross your fingers and send good vibes for me please. I can use all the help I can get. This is my last attempt to keep my family together...
