Sufferer Hello. I Suck At Titles And I Have Ptsd

[Khemical]

I'm about to turn 37. I have PTSD and anxiety and depression and who knows what else. I've been unemployed for over a year. I left my job of 6 years in insurance claims customer service because I couldn't take being in the office and the pressure anymore. I was on medical leave from the job for a bit, but I knew I couldn't go back.

I don't when it all started, probably with my parents arguing and divorce around 6-8 followed by alientation and bullying at school. I was diagnosed with this in my 20s. I don't even remember the specific date. There's a lot of memories that are hazy or just not there. There are other memories I can never get away from. I've been in therapy for over a year, plus medication. SSRIs and all that. I've driven off my girlfriend, friends, family. I just hide.

I tried working online but I couldn't concentrate. Tried out for an editor job and got turned down. Tried another job that seemed perfect but 1 spot for 7 applicants and didn't make it.

Sometimes I don't know what's wrong with me and sometimes I know exactly what it is. I just wish I had hope. I do know that everytime I see this scene from the West Wing I cry:

Also, I don't care who knows my first name. It's Brad. Pleased to meet you.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Brad glad your here. Pleased to meet you too. Lots of people and a big variety of experiences here... Anthony's articles and stuff are helpful. You'll find support here.

 

[Madhather]

Hi Brad welcome to the forum. It is nice to make your acquaintance.

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Hello Brad! I think your title was perfect. It made me chuckle. Welcome and pleased to meet you.

 

[Candleflames]

Hi Brad and welcome.

Here is a good place to be. There is so much information and support. Thank you for sharing that clip, It is beautiful. I'm now crying too.

 

[DMerish]

Hi Brad - welcome to the forum. Thanks for sharing that segment from the West Wing. It was very moving for me too.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Welcome

 

[Khemical]

Thank you. I found this forum just recently and it seemed like a perfect place to just let that out.

 

[wolfkitty]

Welcome Brad, you are not alone!!

 

[Angelwings]

Hello Brad. Welcome :-)

 

[intothelight]

Hi Brad,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum!

It can seem so overwhelming right now, but you've taken a big step in recovery by reaching out and connecting with others. I hope you find the information and support on this site beneficial to your healing.

Take care.

Debbie