Hi Fish Out Of Water,
Welcome to the PTSD Forum. Your thoughts are very common in that life seems to be such a struggle after a trauma, that it is just so hard to deal with. But the good news is, it can get better and you can actually start to enjoy your life again. Just prepared to accept that it will be different, but different can be just as good and as rewarding as it was before.
This site is a great place for information, support and ideas. Please make sure that you keep your medical team and your mental health team in close contact with each other. I truly believe that healing the "whole person" should be the focus and not trying to break it down into a bunch of different pieces. But remember, each part of us heals at a different rate.
Best Wishes!
Debbie