Hello, Looking For Your Ptsd Support

[LoyalOne]

Hey, Cindy. I am theoretically here as a supporter, so you will mostly see me talking about my sufferer, but I am a sexual trauma survivor, and I wall off things. I block out entire chunks of memory, wipe them away completely. So I know what that part is like, like your mind is a tape someone erased pieces of, and you end up filling in the gaps yourself, with mixed results.

I don't get The Headache, though. I do get migraines, but I don't get Brainache.

 

[wcdean]

You are amongst friends here; friends who can relate and completely understand. Trust me when I say that you are not alone with any of the feelings that you are experiencing.

Welcome.

 

[blueangel371115]

Welcome. As others have said too. You are normal. I've dealt with all the confusion much as you have. I'm only just starting to remember certain things from my childhood. You have support here. An open ear or a strong shoulder, whatever you need.

 

[Cindy532]

Thanks everyone for your wonderful comments! I do feel like I am among friends who understand what I'm going through. It is just so hard right now because my husband doesn't get it and I haven't really had anyone to talk to about it. And when I don't talk to anyone and I bottle it up I end up sharing it with people that are just horrified and I wish I hadn't said anything. Sigh. When I said I related better to veterans it was probably the wrong thing to say. Just they were the first people that understood what I was going through. Also I try not to have such a connection with veterans because it brings back the memories of my old boyfriend, who before my brain shut off I was discussing marriage with. Honestly I'm having a much harder time getting over losing him than the traumatic event that caused my PTSD in the first place.. Oh geez I have dreams and flashbacks with him and every time I see a guy in his military uniform it just brings it all back. Does anyone realize how many army guys there are in this country?!!! On the otherhand the flashbacks of being kidnapped leave me feeling nauseus and i'm about hurling so maybe when faced with that, your heart hurting isn't so bad. All I know PTSD is awful stuff!! I'm surprised to read on this site from Anthony that people would actually want to diagnose themselves with this! IF they spent one day with us, they would change their minds! Well, I guess it is not too surprising because my husband is an addict and I spent years and years dealing with his crap, and then my PTSD came out and he went on this whole rampage with himself and was acting out like I didn't have enough to deal with and saying that HE was supposed to be the sick one! I said, "You can be the sick one! Do you think I want PTSD? Nobody would want this!" It costed me a man I loved who was important to me and like I said that has been the hardest part of all of this. Well thanks for reading everyone. In a way we are all dealing with our trauma together. I love you all!