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[Helen77]

Hi, first time seeking a forum for support with PTSD.

I developed PTSD symptoms 18 months following the sudden death of my Mum. I was 38 weeks pregnant with my daughter when she died, she went into liver failure and suffered a hellish 4 weeks. I was in shock for a long time. Now 3 and a half years on (almost 5 years since her death) I am still having episodes, I've been in therapy for 5 years, tried meds twice with horrible side effects. The last 4 months I've been feeling good, then we moved house, my son is starting at a new school, my psychologist left - and I guess all the change has triggered my PTSD / grief - don't understand it and feel like I am going insane every time it happens. The more time that passes the more insane it feels to still be going through this kind of panic / anxiety and complete terror over something that happened so long ago. At my wits end and so scared that I will never find a way out of this fear.

Anyway thanks for having me here ;)

 

[Fraenzy MDM]

Welcome Helen!

I am also new here and just introduced myself.
I know this up and downs, there are times when I really, really forgot that ever anything happened, that I suffered, that I experienced this and than, suddenly it came back. Sometimes only night terrors or flashbacks, sometimes depressive episodes, like it was telling me "Hey, I am still here!".

Did you already find a new therapist to see? I think that moving and adapting with a lot of new stuff, like what u described can be very stressfull and stress might trigger.

And, thank you for being here :)

 

[intothelight]

@Helen77 Welcome to the forum! :)

When stress increases, even good stress, symptoms can also increase. Moving, having a child start school and changes in doctors are all stressful events. I hope this forum gives you some ideas about managing the anxiety/fear, but more importantly, I hope you find support and encouragement from people who understand the struggle.

 

[OrganicRobot]

Hello!

Change can be very hard, especially when there is so much going on at once. I hope you are able to gain some stability and are able to recharge. Peace.

 

[Thanks]

Thanks for the replies. I spoke to the traumatic stress clinic here in Sydney yesterday and they gave me a referral to a Psychologist who specialises in PTSD and prolonged/complicated grief - so I'm going to give her a try ;)

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Glad you found a new theraphist, hopefully it works out for you, and welcome to the forums :)