Help Me!

[Bordo66]

So I managed to finish everything on school and made it till the trainingperiod and I am now 3 days in Guernsey and I'm litterly going insane. The working part is fine but when I'm done I just don't know what to do. This is the 2nd time in 3 days that I'm just crying. I'm getting really bad idea's in my head and I really need some help.

 

[Lionheart]

My advise is to allow yourself to cry as often as you need to. It will get better with time. Also remember that whatever bad thoughts are in your head, they are just thoughts and can't hurt you unless you act on them. I found that writing about my thoughts helped, as does talking with other support people, like a therapist or other members of this forum. It helps get it out of our heads and out into the open so that we may begin to heal. I cried so much I literally thought I would die from the grief, but I didn't. Now I seldom cry and when I do, it doesn't last long. Allow yourself some time to laugh and play, it is difficult moving through certain healing phases and you owe it to yourself to be gentle and understanding with yourself.

 

[Bordo66]

I'm not in my hometown anymore for psychological help. Im 850KM fromhome. I have to go the hotel but I cant everytome I stand up. I have to cry. Im getting really bad idea's in my head atm

 

[Lionheart]

I wish I knew what to say to help you out, the only thing I can think of is that your feelings are valid and are temporary too. I Imagine being so far away from home make things a bit more difficult. You need support people so that you don't have to go through things all on your own. Just please don't do anything to hurt yourself, you deserve a chance to heal and that takes time. Take it slow and be easy with yourself. Sometimes things can feel worse before they get better, but they will get better.

 

[SimplyComplex]

can you call a crisis line? I don't know your area, but it could be a simple google

 

[Bordo66]

I dont feel like Im in need for a crysis line now, guess Im just homesick

 

[SimplyComplex]

What about getting an action plan together if you find yourself in crisis again? It could have numbers of crisis lines, a friend who could help ground you a bit, some plans for relaxation that are not self harming. like:

When I start to feel overwhelmed
go for a 30 minute jog (if light out)
take a shower
practice my mindfullness skills
post on the board

If not getting better
call John and ask him for advice
call the crisis line
go to the emergency room

Of course it would be different, because it would be based on what works for you and your life. But, it is an example. My T taught me planning for dealing with tough situations...we started with visiting my in-laws :) and I use it for alot of things that I know are going to be rough. I think you may be homesick, but that doesn't change the immense pain you are experiencing and it doesn't make your feelings less important or real.