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[Bordo66]

a quick edit on my last post:

I felt really pissed a hour ago and I was litterly shacking, but we are all fighting a war within. Some advice from my side: always TRY(doesn't always work but still) to see the positive side of certain negative things, like when I became an army reject. I just wanted to jump in the water and drown myself. Well now I go to school again and think I get to learn new people, new languages and some more new stuff.

If you post something here everytime you feel bad/pissed/sad I think it will help. A lot of people her lived aweful things and are willing to help. I hope I can help you... hehe of course I still depend on the rest :) no questions asked.

 

[Tina]

Thanks everyone for the support

 

[alixipain]

I would probably be a hypocrite if I would say dont commit suicide but for some reason... Hmm how am I going to explain this, for some reason... Errr... For some reason we have to live!

We're all Hypocrites!! I don't know how many others here have attempted suicide at least 3-5 times, BUT we all lived through it.

I was asked once by a doctor (not a T) while in the hospital "Knowing what you know now would you try suicide again?"
"Most likely YES! I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living!" Its the truth the normal world scares the sh*t out of me at times. I'm still here after the medical world decided to disregard a DNR (Do Not Resuscitate), Am I happy they disregarded it? Yes and no, but someday that no will be gone.

I keep myself away from my family, for my sanity. I keep myself away from things that can trigger me (movies and such), I stay away from conflicts the best I can. I do my thing(s) that make me happy, and try not to give a s**t what others think. You have to decide for yourself what you want, help for yourself to get through to the otherside (otherside being normal), or sit in a box banging your head against the walls crying.
Your here thats a step blessed be in what you have started, the road is not in anyway easy, but its the right path just ask any of the thousands here. Good Luck! ~ Alix

 

[jokuzzi]

Tina,
We've all felt like ending the pain permanently...don't do it!!! Don't let the bastard plaguing you win. Ypu reached out to others with your post...you're not ready to quit...you're too strong for that. Believe it or not, your existance in this shitty world is IMPORTANT!!! Be defiant. Cry if you have to, scream, work yourself until you're too tired to attempt hurting yourself. You can fight this and when you feel you're not strong enough, reach out (in a post) for help. You have people!!! We get it. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

 

[Tina]

Having a really bad day today. Have an appointment with my therapist this evening. I just saw her yesterday. Just trying to get to the appointment.

 

[cherryblossom]

Just take it minute by minute, hour by hour. Maybe spend some time writing down what you want to say to your therapist. Focus your mind. Your therapist is there to help you. Don't let panic take over, and then be lost for words. (I've done it. I did it today in fact. I didn't tell my therapist what I should have told her, and now I regret it). Use the time with your therapist well. And if you write things down and take it with you, even if you are lost for words, you can just show her/him what you've written, as a starting point.

Hang in there.