Helplessness In Civilian Life And What Helps In Dealing With It

[Jimmy1]

I totally agree sometimes mate. Simplicity. I can't wait till my boy has grown up and I can lead the simple life.
My phone however; is also my diary. I have also found it great when the power or phone line has been down due to rain and the cyclone. I can access the net if I want. I don't need half the applications on it though.

The other level of importance to me is punctuality. I still can't shake that 'be there 5 min before' that was drummed into me in the military. If you did not adhere to timings, it could get you killed, or you could miss your ride. It really pisses me off when a doctor or anyone makes a time, knowing that they will be behind by the time you get there. I make medical appointments first up in the morning, hoping that they are not that far behind by the time it gets to me. The weird thing though, is that I don't wear a watch anymore, but I can still get there. (My Phone Has An Awesome Clock). lmao

 

[willis williams]

I really don't go anywhere so I'm always on time. I tried to get a phone without a camera on account of I already have two they told me they did not carry them anymore. Anymore I don't care to be recognized for my service because maybe 10% is heart felt the rest it's like the apropriate thing to say. The government who told me that because I worked so hard for so many years starting at 16 paying taxes that I ould draw my social security wich is more than my mother and father put together denied me. Unemployment wont let me have it even though I have the hours because when I got out of the VA I couldn't get a Dr.s release. SS said there are jobs in the aconomy that are less stressful and not physicaly demanding but I was a millwright and welder and don't have any of those skills for these new fangled jobs can't type that was cured when the 240 ton crane moved when it wasn't suposed to and they brought in a reconstructive surgen from argentina to half ass make it work. There are jobs around if I move but thanks to the VA I don't have the money or a truck to move. I still haven't got the appology I was promised from the staff that caused all this. I have enough money to make half next months rent and had to get help from charities to pay the electric. I used to make 22 $ an hour full benifits med, dent, and vision work all the overtime I wanted and it took three months for the VA to throw it all away and still haven't got the appology the hospital admin. said I would get. If I find a job I am screwed for any kind of appeal if I try around here they all know I was in the nut house so that won't fly. That leaves back on the road and the last time I was on the road I came home for my 3 yr olds birthday and he wouldn't even sit on my lap. I was doing so good until I was told that drinking after work till you pass out was bad so I changed my ways and have almost lost everything hell youall are my only friends. I will find a way out one way or the other I don't even sweat anymore because my heart ain't right. Thanks for listening. TEX

 

[No Folded Hands]

Ouch, man, that's a lot of sheis to shovel. I decided to take a few days "off" after reading some of the replies to this --just doing my exercises so the physical stuff hopefully doesn't get any worse, eating right, and watching a boat load of 50s and 60s science fiction flicks. What can I say, that's relaxing for this crock...;) Next week back to picking which VA or PTSD related problem to take the next crack at...and I hope you get them to do better by you soon, too, Tex. Pullin for you.

Funny, the VA pulled a boner on me some months back, refusing to get me something I hear from another government agency vets get from the VA all the time. I called one of my Congressman's offices. Possibility it may be something worth an inquiry, need more info first. Just a thought...anything your congressman might be able to do to help yopu with your mess?

 

[willis williams]

Thanks, I will sort it out it just bothers me that I am raising three boys that aren't mine biologicaly but I love them and thier real dad collects social secerity has never paid taxes and in 5 yrs never paidany more than 20$ child support. Goes to a board gets hisself deamed unemployable all his back childsupport washed away still collects SSI and can go to school free and I struggle to keep a roof over there head and there beelies full. Just don't make any sense I think I bring it on myself I know that I brought PTSD on myself I knew what it was maybe not the name I was raised with PTSD my father has three purple hearts from tours in the nam. I remember the rage the beatings the never playing catch but I chose to go anyway and I volunteered for every stupid death wish mission I could I even volunteered to stay till the deadline for all americans out hoping to die because maybe my dad would notice me then. So I gave myself PTSD I did things to people that no matter how hard you wash and scrub it won't wash off. So you know some real deep shit about me so you can understand why I think this is carma and I'm shore I could win but anymore I ain't got much fight. Youu know the old saying glass half empty or half full they left out it being just full. The question is, is it worth drinking. In my sapper unit our motto was we will pave the way we were combat forward so if the infantry had to get there we were saposed to make it happen. We had a three second life expectancy according to some idiot that must of timed it. I knew why because in a breach your buddies are shooting at you and the enemy is shooting at you but if the road block, command detinated mine, or even just burnt up cars are in the way the infantry can get stuck and in so many cases shot up from above. I new these things and I did my job and I did it well even got some stupid shit to pin on my chest. This is why I get so pissed when I hear of some peice of shit riding the system when we have vets who basically have to have a act of god just to get fixed. Enough whinning. Time to go walk about!!!

 

[BV101]

Jimmy, I thought the "5 minutes before" thing was normal practice! That really gets on my nerves, people just swanning up at X hour plus XXXX minutes. Twats!
Tex, reading your threads it confirms that you are a lovely lovely man. You have 7 shades of shit to deal with on a daily basis, yet you are bringing up 3 boys. Thats something to be proud of and good luck to you for it. Especially for an ex sapper.